As I sit here and think about what I should eat, like I usually do, I figured I'd write something to you. I haven't sent you anything in a while, have I? I'm sorry for not talking so much. There are just a few things I don't want even you to know, things I'd like to keep to myself. Don't worry, it's nothing... really bad! I'm fine, trust me. It would seem life has just been getting a bit confusing as of late. I can't figure anything out but schoolwork anymore. Why certain memories can't go away, why certain things had to happen, how I feel a majority of the time, why I feel certain ways...
And... where does one draw the line between friendship and... love? Where do you begin embracing one thing and pushing away another? What defines family love and something more than friends? Oh, just so you know... I believe these questions are simply drawn forth by thinking about my character Notika a lot lately... Nothing more, nothing more to do with me, I promise. 'Cause me, wanting something more than a friend? Absurd... In any case, I'll have you know that Notika, who I use to weave stories with one of my friends... which usually seem to be Naruto related when she's in the mix... believes she may want something more than just friends between herself and her best friend. But, everything's confusing her, as she's seen him with another girl a lot. She's afraid to approach, afraid that there wouldn't be enough to keep them together or that something bad might happen, but she's also afraid if she doesn't do anything, the two may become permanent, or that he may find still someone else and they might become permanent. She's in quite a fix, no? I wonder if there would be anyone to help her decide what to do?
I believe I've been writing for a good thirty minutes now, yet I still don't know what to eat! Maybe that's how I lose weight? I can never decide what to eat, so I simply sit there, hungry, until I do know! It's terrible!
I suppose you could also say that's how I chose to solve problems? I remain silent until I finally really know what to do... It's hazardous, sometimes. Some situations require you to act immediately, but sometimes... Sometimes you don't see that? And then when you finally do have an answer, it's too late, it's all over with? With me, and my slow self, if I ever do figure out how to deal with any of my problems, it might be far too late... And then I'll be stuck in another situation I don't like. I need to start deciding on things faster! Get things done, stop stalling! That way I won't be hungry for so long! It's not good for me, I know, it can't be!
On that note, I believe I know what to eat now, so I think I'll end this now and resolve my hunger, then get back to my work.
...But what then?
Yours truly,
Prinny Su
A.K.A. Osaka
Prinny Su
A.K.A. Osaka
