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Where to begin. A lot has happened, so I'll just sum it up. I moved to Virginia summer of last year, and came back early fall due to dangerous circumstances. What sucks is I got a job as substitute teacher, and had my Learners Permit, but now it's all invalid. So I'm back in NC with nothing to my name. Although, I've taken some classes to take up time, and to get ready for the Placement Exam. Once I take that I can get into my Early Childhood Development class, and start working at a Daycare close to home! The course is 2 years long though, and my dad is already showing signs that he's not fit to keep working, and he'll be paid enough in Disability just for himself. There won't be enough for us to even survive on. I need a job SO bad. I almost got an offer today to watch someone's dog for 4 days. It would've been $80, but I didn't find the email fast enough, and someone else took it. *sigh* Lovely.

I really haven't been myself lately. I felt myself slowly slipping back into my old self. My old skin, and every passing day felt like a constant hell. After last night, my whole heart is now in God. My faith is intense, and I'm ready to fight for my family. I'll do anything it takes. Even if it means walking to work, which I can, if I get a job at Food Lion. They're hiring, thank you God! Only 3 minutes from my house! I gotta believe that job is already mine. If not that one, than somewhere I can ride the bus. Whatever it takes! I won't let my family down. I've gotta protect them. My mother is ill, and my brother's leg is..well I just know it gives out on him. Although he seems to be getting better as of late. Which is absolutely fantastic. Still, I can't help but feel responsible. I love them more than anything. I want to take care of them. heart