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i dont get it, i dont understand. . . everyone was right the clues were right in front of my face i told you i was thinking of braking up w/ you and you said "DO IT" . . . YOU NO HOW I FELT WHEN YOU SAID THAT!!!! cry it hurted all the thoughts that made me think of braking up w/ you seemed to b true. . . so i left you theeen you tell me u made a mistake on letting me go, my mind went crazy you wouldnt leave me alone you made me want you back but i tryed telling my self to say no i tryed so hared not to say "yes" again,the day you texted me "meet me some where i wanna see you" i went (this happend days after i left you and we were still friends) we were talking then i stood on a big rock and you gave me this stare as you were listening to ur ipod you got on the rock w/ me and some how we started making out it was something i wouldnt forget and something i can not forget,. . . you said you relized you needed me it wasnt the same with out me i some what be lived it but i shouldnt have, you said you will try to show me that you do care YOU LIED!!! stare . . . yea i said yes a second time i dont regret it sweatdrop and when i said it, it felt wrong yet it felt right, we stayed after skool 2geather date n 4 the 2nd time wink i told you i wasnt in a good mood you said then y did i stay after skool i told you that i thought you could fix it. . . and you just look at me i said that cuz i thought you would make me feel better cuz you made me happy baby but i guess not. then the same day you randomly tell me if i remember the day we kissed on the rock and i said yea with a smile smile and you said you had a girlfriend that day. . . i was ******** shocked!!!! so many damn thoughts started running though my head i didnt no if i was just over reacting but these were me thought!
1. i remembered one of his ex gfs telling me he left her 4 another girl and he dose that and the day i left him the very next day you got another gf how can you do that i give you player points BUT was i not good enough at that time?
2. you probaly ******** cheated on me with her but it dosnt matter if you did cuz i cheated on you
3 how discusting!! i never EVER date guys again if they had another gf after me and kissed them
but it was to late so yea i broke up w/ you (but it wasnt on that day we were hanging out) and now we dont talk any more its been weeks and weeks ive been haven a blast you seem 2 be okay w/ us not togeather as well but the whole reson why im writeing this is cuz. . . . . something in my mind is saying i miss you!! stare and i dont no how to feel about this i keep thinking what if you were be n 4 real about ur feelings and stuff cuz i remember see n some thing you wrote it said "im date n a girl name mel i <3 her" i didnt no if that was true but even though we went out b 4 i still wanna talk to you i wanna still b friends i dont see why we have to stop talking ("if you take em back a second time it wasnt a mistake" wink i do miss you at times and i addmit it i miss you smile, i miss you just looking at me in this way thats so hot, ill addmit i almost fell 4 you, i miss you kissing me lol and i loved it when you would lick me it was cute xd and when you would try to give me a hicky it felt like you were bite n me it hurted but i liked it, it was sexy lol but i dont wanna tell you these things cuz i dont wanna look like the weak one looking despret wanting you back, you dont even want me back (i think) but this if as good as i can explain much of what was on my mind