So I decided i'd come back. If only to check a few things from time to time when I feel like it. I could care less if I was missed or not, but thank you Angel. You may not approve of the way I do things, but this is me. Please don't worry so much, and never think I got mad at you because I wasnt returning your letters. Thats bull. I just don't hang around people when Im having a hard time, Its much easier to push myself away rather then hurt them.
Thus why I avoid you Kitty, but know I work on your drawing in my spare time and it lifts my spirits even when I can't talk to you. Im willing to help you through any hard times in reguards you understand you cant help me in mine. Thats just the way it is.
Shiny your something else. I love ya but you cant hold onto me forever, okie? Stop looking at me as some cool big sister because Im not cool and its ruining your image of me. In the past it was fun, having you look up to me. But now a days you need to figure somethings out on your own, and not look to me as an example. I will read what you say but most likely not reply, as for now its in your best intrest.
As of this moment I have no life, and its rather sad. I watch anime, listen to my sisters talk about their days, and go to work. I do not hang with any so called friends, both online or off. I decided I wanted to change that, if only just a little. But Id have to start with everyones image of me. So I will end this entry bursting all yall's image of myself.
I'm a 5'8, brown haired tomboy who enjoys video games and anime. I have a bigger heart than I let on and yet I feel nothing. Im not a nice person I only pretend to be. Im nice to my family and that is pretty much it, besides having to be nice at work (duh). I only continued to come to this site for Ninja in the begining, and when he failed to come anymore I would of left too, had it not been for a few of you.
I probaly should of left to begin with but instead I stayed so you could entertain me. If I get bored I toss things aside, rarely can I stay focused. Im nobodys sister here, im nobodys mother here. I am me. And wether or not I continue to come here will be decided in the days to come. Im bored people...and not entertained. Somethings gotta give. Might as well be your memories of me.
If your reading this Gray no worries mate, this was more or less directed at the above mentioned. So now Im off to bed. Gotta get some sleep before two days of work and then my open weekend where I will most likely do nothing.
-End of Jouran
The-Orders-Army · Thu May 26, 2011 @ 04:35am · 1 Comments |