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It is about time I do some explaining- My personal exile |
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I have left R-Aramaea.
Permanently.
I have no left gaia,
from the lack of PM's I see no one really cares. I am still on gaia and still posting, just under my original name.
Now to explain my motives.
I left this account because it was just a reminder of all the stupid gaia drama I have put myself through. WG drama, sticks out in my head the most, I needed a quick escape from those who pretended to be my friend by sucking my e-c**k to get to those I knew. I was never meant to worshipped. I am just another user. You all should have treated me as such.
In whole I have left WGs. I may poke in, but dont make a thing out of it.
For those who missed my quick departure.
******** off.
For those who know my new account, stop posting comments on this one.I had a lot LOT of good times on this account, but when i realized how much more fun gaia can be when your friends list is not full of duds you have not talked to in two years time, it was an uplifting moment.
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I leave this account with this note:
Remember the things i tried to teach some of you. The things most of your drama-riled teenage psyches could not handle.
1. You have nothing to prove to anyone.
2. Be yourself, you will find that people will accept you when you let social pressures wash away.
3. Be kind to your enemies, and kinder to your friends.
4. There is no such thing as a stupid argument. Defend your points, as long as you can back it up with solid facts. But, at the same time do not turn a deft ear to the other side. Admit when you are wrong, and learn from the experiences
5. Have the time of your life everyday. Its hard to live by this, but when you wake up make a habit of reminding yourself for even 10 seconds what a treasure it is to be alive. I know this is impossible, even I falter from it.
6. No one is perfect, get over it and move on.
7. Remember to ignore the excuses you make for yourself. There will always be something stopping you from living your life. Always.
8. Sexuality is not meant to be who you are. It is meant to be a minor facet in the whole that is you.
9. Indulge in hobbies, you will be a much more rounded person.
10. And finally, For god sakes. This is just a website, go outside and be with people. Gaia will always be there, stop pretending like its more than what it is. But, at the same time value the amazing friendships you have made on Gaia. Some of my closest friends have come from this site.
--This is Aramaea signing out.--
--Peace.--
 Rex Aramaea · Thu Feb 15, 2007 @ 06:57am · 2 Comments |
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I am now once again Aramaea
only now I am Rex Aramaea.
Look it up ;D
Rex Aramaea · Fri Sep 29, 2006 @ 07:15pm · 0 Comments |
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Today I hit my 20 000th post count,
I never thought I would EVER make it that far on gaia.
Do i feel impressed? or sad?
I feel a bit sad to the fact that I have wasted that much time daily on a website D:
Rex Aramaea · Wed Aug 30, 2006 @ 07:55pm · 2 Comments |
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I do not like meeting people I once knew a couple of years ago in the bathrooms at restaurants.
When I go to a restaurant, It is to enjoy a little time with those I care about, laughing and joking around a pile of cheese and cholesterol. Around me sits strangers, whom I never have and never will have an urge to converse with. The server is friendly in an uncaring "I am getting paid 8 dollars an hour to work here" kind of way. Everything is thrown out of sync when I stand to go the restroom and some schmuck from High School is washing his hands, or even worse standing in the urinal next to me. Nothing is worse than trying to unleash the beast while someone makes idle "What have you been doing with your life?" chit chat.
I feel, the awkward feeling of the meeting is a case of social standard to talk to this person. If you do not you run the fear of coming off as an arrogant a*****e who shoves aside those he once had a conversation with four years ago. Both parties do not want to be discussing anything with each other, and both parties did not even think they would see the other again. This is all made worse when you cannot leave the area, I.E. the bathroom. One cannot simply make an excuse to be "pressed for time" and then scurry off to another shop, street, etc. In the bathroom you have to do what you entered the bathroom to do and while in there the simple fact that you have to discuss with someone while you are doing something you are quite used to doing alone makes things awkward enough, Add the level of awkward conversation presented by said old friend and you are practically swimming in the unpleasant feeling.
Now that high school is done, the old colleagues of mine have returned for summer vacation (albeit they are leaving again soon) I have encountered a many of these awkward bathroom moments. Typically when I do see an old friend in there, I head straight to the bathroom stall, because of all the area inside of the bathroom the bathroom stall is sort of a conversation safe haven. While it is okay for you to converse with someone while using the urinals, It seems an invisible barrier goes up while you arecocooned inside of the four stall walls.
In this short blurb I leave you with this:
Awkward moment in the bathroom will always happen, so be ready for them. Go for the stall.
Rex Aramaea · Wed Aug 23, 2006 @ 11:32pm · 4 Comments |
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cynic
One entry found for cynic.
Main Entry: cyn·ic
Pronunciation: 'si-nik
Function: noun
Etymology: Middle French or Latin, Middle French cynique, from Latin cynicus, from Greek kynikos, literally, like a dog, from kyn-, kyOn dog -- more at HOUND
1 capitalized : an adherent of an ancient Greek school of philosophers who held the view that virtue is the only good and that its essence lies in self-control and independence
2 : a faultfinding captious critic; especially : one who believes that human conduct is motivated wholly by self-interest
- cynic adjective
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For Lack of a better term I would define myself as a cynic. Of course I would never be so naive as to claim this is the only thing that defines who I am. But I will say it is a pretty important part of my personality.
I have problems trusting people, it has always been my opinion (border lining on paranoia) that every stranger I meet has a hidden agenda that they do not want to reveal to me until the right time. This fear that No one is fully trustworthy has made me lose a lot of friends and other relationships. It forces me to become shy and quiet around those I do not know and hyper defensive on those I do know. I have no regrets or feel any shame over the loss of friends from my inability to fully trust.
My final line in this short blurb I have on thing to say, Do not deny who or what you are. Do not regret what you have done. And finally, do not cry over most friends lost. Most friends are replaceable, but if you are not careful you might lose that one who could have been there until the day you die.
Rex Aramaea · Wed Aug 23, 2006 @ 07:23am · 2 Comments |
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The Greatest Mother ******** List Ever |
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The Owner Of Myspace =-0
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I am now accepting movie recommendations. Any thing you think I should see just tell me so on this journal entry. This would be a great help. Thank you.
EDIT: I meant films to be released or in theatres (USA)
This is my movie list
Firewall
Good Night and Goodluck
King Kong
Brokeback Mountain
The Three Burials of Melquiades Estrada
Night Watch
Fun With d**k and Jane
Matador
The Pink Panther
V for Vendetta
Thank You For Smoking
Inside Man
Lucky Number Slevin
Scary Movie 4
The Libertine
Brick
Akeelah and the Bee
Mission: Impossible III
The DaVinci Code
X3: The Last Stand
The Break Up
Nacho Libre
The Fast and The Furious: Tokyo Drift
Superman Returns
Click
Pirates of The Carribean: Dead Man's Chest
Cars
A Scanner Darkly
Monster House
Clerks II
Talladega Nights: The Ballad of Ricky Bobby
Maybe count:
Neon Genesis Evangellion REdeath
True Naruto Style: The Movie
Total: 33/50
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This is not in order btw.
Okay now to explain this list:
It was new years and I needed a new resolution and I decided to do something that challenged me but I could actually complete. I decided to watch 50 at a minimum of movies at the end of the year. This is the first update more for myself to keep a record and to have a little ego boost.
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Rex Aramaea · Sun Aug 06, 2006 @ 12:24am · 0 Comments |
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The Owner Of Myspace =-0
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I am now accepting movie recommendations. Any thing you think I should see just tell me so on this journal entry. This would be a great help. Thank you.
EDIT: I meant films to be released or in theatres (USA)
This is my movie list
Firewall
Good Night and Goodluck
King Kong
Brokeback Mountain
The Three Burials of Melquiades Estrada
Night Watch
Fun With d**k and Jane
Matador
The Pink Panther
V for Vendetta
Thank You For Smoking
Inside Man
Lucky Number Slevin
Scary Movie 4
The Libertine
Brick
Akeelah and the Bee
Mission: Impossible III
The DaVinci Code
X3: The Last Stand
The Break Up
Nacho Libre
The Fast and The Furious: Tokyo Drift
Superman Returns
Click
Pirates of The Carribean: Dead Man's Chest
Cars
A Scanner Darkly
Monster House
Clerks II
Maybe count:
Neon Genesis Evangellion REdeath
True Naruto Style: The Movie
Total: 32/50
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This is not in order btw.
Okay now to explain this list:
It was new years and I needed a new resolution and I decided to do something that challenged me but I could actually complete. I decided to watch 50 at a minimum of movies at the end of the year. This is the first update more for myself to keep a record and to have a little ego boost.
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Rex Aramaea · Sun Jun 04, 2006 @ 05:37am · 2 Comments |
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