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Gaia Exchange > MeThinX's (10k) Lotto
I'm seeing that my whole focus from my other entry today is about standing out. That was the same purpose of those first three threads. A thread defacing the very thing the site was about, a crazy bar with wizards in it, and a way of making what I thought was a lot of money. I've wanted to be an unlimitedly rich and famous Gaian since I joined and realized what I had in my grasp. There's not a chance in hell in my real life of becoming famous, and at best I could get an upper-middle class job. Everything changes on the internet. Through these games and websites I've tried to gain fame and fortune obsessively. When I think of Gaia, I don't think of it as a community that I joined to communicate about anime, I think of it like it's a failed stock in my virtual portfolio. I've gained friends, but nobody knows me in the grand scheme of things.
Why else would I get involved in the GEN? Sad though I am that it's merely a shadow of its former self, I wanted in because I thought it would help get me fame. Surely the only consistent price guide on Gaia would shoot me to the top! Friends were a bonus to me at the time. I just wanted to get all the information I could about prices and trends, and the way Gaians worked. I had stores and quests and friends and good times, but I never reached my goal of climbing all the way to the top of the social ladder. I didn't have the opportunity to donate for the Halo because I showed up too late, which would have secured me my dream, and I couldn't put forth the effort to exchange-whore my way to get one. I had a long-term plan involving letters, but when they seemed to stop increasing in value and buying them became too expensive, I had to stop. Also, the mess with the price guides screwed up my plans to an extent. I saw my only easy street opportunity burning up, and my ability at art could scarcely produce an income.
This was around the end of 2004. I stuck around until 2005 and tried to go on without a big dream. What it's dissolved into since is a few posts a week a questions that bug me whenever I login. Should I do this? Does it make any sense for me to keep posting once every 10 pages in ONE thread, if I'm really done with this site? Could I come back and pull a Kalec? (And would I be insane to try?)
And most importantly, what is it worth to me?
