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I just read through all my past journal entries. And they're all boring and suck. I NEED THIS ONE TO BE GOOD. So when I look back on it in 5 years I can be like "LOL I WAS SO NOT LAME. LOL".

So yeah, it's 11:36pm right now, I'm bored. I know I could be doing things as of importance, but nahh, I rather waste my time. ;D Does anyone actually read journal entries? If anyone reads this, put your favorite emoticon as a comment. If you don't do that, get out of herrrree. Ewww stalkerrr! talk2hand


Uhh, yeah. Thanksgiving is coming uppp. I have school this week. Which is LAME. Even if I'm a failure and dropped two classes so now I'm just taking only 9 units, I don't want to gooo. D: Which brings me up to the subject of life. OMG WHAT AM I GOING TO DO WITH IT? gonk I wanna stay in theatre, even if it's tech stuff, but then I want something that I can live off of when I become an old crazy catchinchilla lady. My pets will need food too! LOL but yeah... idk what I'm gonna do. I'm going to take a graphic design class next semester... idk it seems like it'll be fun, but I kinda don't know what it all involves and such.
I guess I should decide what I need to do, so I can pick my major. Sociology kinda interests me, but I'm too lazy and I think I'm going to fail the class I'm in... guess I should pick a class that I'm probably going to fail as my major. LOL. Which that kinda scares me, I've always been like "OMG I'm gonna fail" in highschool when I had anything lower than an A, which of course I never even gotten close to an F. I'ce had two Cs and the rest were As and Bs in high school, but omg, in this Sociology class, I might actually fail for once. D: I need to stop being such a failuuuuure. Graghhhh. Jeez I'm almost 19 I should have my whole life planned out now. talk2hand LOLJK.

It kinda dawned on me that I've been single for 3 years now. Wow, I suuuuck... or lack of sucking LOLLOLOLJK ;D. Annnnd my ex was the last person I've kissed on the lips. Damn, I wish I was more confident and flirtatious and could get a man. But it's hard to do that when I'm only attracted to gay guys... I need a nice metrosexual to make me happyyy! : D LOL orrrr I should stop being such a weirdo person, lose some my pudginess and become a slut. HOLLA. 8D

I'm still at that whole "I need to figure myself out" stage. Like, I'll tihnk I'm one way, or like to believe I'm one way, but then I realize I'm... not. Like, I never realized how much of a selfish person I am until a couple of months ago. Like, I have friends who would always let me come over when I need to get out of the house, and when they call me I won't even pick up my phone. Damn I'mma b***h. ;o

BUT LETS NOT FOCUS ON ALL MY NEGATIVITY HERE
(Why do I type in caps? What does this meeeean? gonk )
Anyway, Kenny is back in Brentwooood. yeahyeahyeahhh! I feel like the only reason we hang out is because we don't want to lose part of our childhood. Like, we're in each others memories and we just want to relive it.... but in reality, we don't really click anymore. I used to never care about anything when we hung out. Now I don't even want to hang out with him because I seriously feel like I'm too boring for him. He tries to hang out with me sooo bad, but I keep... ignoring him. Like, he has all these stories about guys he's hooked up with, and all these wild party stories, and I'm like "LOL one time I went to Taco Bell...." xd Maybe I should just become some wild crazy gay boy. Hahahaha...hah, only slightly kidding. Oh wow, I was about to post something else, but there's something holding me back from saying it, even in this journal entry that no one is going to read and if they did, they would have stopped reading after the third line. >.> Mermermerrrrrrrrrrr.

OMG I have a new obsession: Adam Lambert. LOL I kinda accidentally fallen in love with Mr. Lambert. xd I accidentally previewed one of his songs on itunes, then BAM I know all his songs on his CD and I'm adding him on Twitter and everything. Yayy for finding new music! surprised Now I just need to make a friend love him too so I forsure have a concert buddy...Jesse would probably go, depending on how much tickets cost. But I would probably buy two tickets and just tell him to just come with me. ;o


LOL I was going to totally try and make this journal entry not lame, but I think I fail. Aw well, when I look back on this I can be like "LOL I REMEMBER THOSE THOUGHTS!" (LOL might be replaced with WTF)...

So uh yeah, now you know a little of my mind and what's been going on in it... why are you still reading this? ...stooooop. Stalkerrrr! D: