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Sometime last year, my subconscious decided that it had enough of my numbness, and assaulted me with my childhood dreams. It caused me to realize that my life had taken a course I neither wanted, nor liked. I realized that I wanted to change.

My first reaction to my dreams was a frenzied zeal, I felt like I could take on the world again. For the first time in years, I felt strong, hopeful.

Then, the insecurities I had amassed along the years caught up with me, held me down, and the idea that I may lose the sight of my dreams once again caused me to panic beyond reason. My new found strength left me, leaving me alone, empty and cold again.

In these last two months, though, the universe also decided that it had had enough with my self-pity, and decided to shake me a little bit, I guess… People I met made me question my strong and weak sides, the news I heard and read gave me ideas for new opportunities, and little by little, the long lasting panic disappeared. I woke up on the New Year with a new plan.

Now, for the first time in my life, I am ready to chase my dreams. This time, what I have is not only hope, but also determination. I know that I am not strong enough to take on the world yet. But I will be.

So?

BRING IT ON!