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Trish Thuy Trang- Such A Girl
I keep thinking of him
Every night I can see
When he’s smiling so bright
I know it’s just for me
All my friends tell me this
I should say how I feel
That he’s perfect for me
And this love is for real
This picture in my mind of him and I combined
In my dreams he’ll always remain
(Chorus)
I’m such a girl and I live in my own world
With this guy that I imagine will one day be mine
And I know
I’m such a girl and I hope he’ll come around and conveys how he feels
And I’m just wishing that someday he’ll see
I’m such a girl
If I give him this note
Speaking straight from my heart
Could this give me a chance
Is this where our love will start
This picture in my mind of him and I combined
In my dreams he’ll always remain
(Chorus)
I’m such a girl and I live in my own world
With this guy that I imagine will one day be mine
And I know
I’m such a girl and I hope he’ll come around and conveys how he feels
And I’m just wishing that someday he’ll see
I’m such a girl
Who can’t stop wishing
My heart keeps racing
Just from the thought of him looking my way
Pretty white flowers, under the rainbow
I wish someday, he’ll be holding my hand
Holding my hand, holding my hand
(Chorus 2x)
I’m such a girl and I live in my own world
With this guy that I imagine will one day be mine
And I know
I’m such a girl and I hope he’ll come around and convey how he feels
And I’m just wishing that someday he’ll see
I’m such a girl
God this is exactly how I feel since May 2nd, 2008
I’ve been in love with this guy since the eighth grade. I may have a boyfriend now, but he isn’t the guy I first wanted. I love my boyfriend and all but I don’t love all the flaws he haves. Everyone keeps thinking that I’m happy, and we’re both the perfect lovebirds. I don’t feel that way, but I know he does.
“All my friends tell me this
I should say how I feel
That he’s perfect for me
And this love is for real”
My old friend Sammy told me that my crush and I were perfect for each other. He honestly meant it too. He’s the only one I talk about my crush with, and I feel like he’s the only one who understands since he’s known my crush for a long time. I can’t put this little blog on myspace because I don’t want to hurt my boyfriend. My boyfriend has had a rough past. His most recent ex, whom he dated for four years, screwed him over. She got pregnant with another guy, had the child, and made my boyfriend think that it was his child. My boyfriend did pay for everything, but he avoids her in every way now. He didn’t date again for four years until he met me. I think he falls in love too hard. . .
The guy that I like, he’s an a*****e over half the time. Most girls wouldn’t date him because he’s a nerd and he’s unattractive, but I find him cute. He does little cute, random stuff and it just makes me laugh. I love his sense of humor, and his talent for good comebacks. I love every flaw in him, and I accept him for who he is. His goofy smile is just so perfect. I keep thinking that he likes me, but my hopes go down after I hear him say what type of girl he usually goes for and it just hurts me, because that’s the kind of girl I could never be. Right now, I just feel dead, and he’s the only one who can resurrect me and kill me again. He’s so clueless on how I feel T-T
He is so ******** blind though. He doesn’t realize how much time I wasted to just see him, or how much effort I make myself just to look decent. I’m just a friend to him, and I know he won’t see me in any other way. He’s all I ever think about, and I most likely have no chance whatsoever. I don’t have the confidence to tell him that I love him. I’m afraid that I’ll get rejected, get my heart broken, and never sense of that feeling of love again. Even though it’s better to know now than never, I still want to keep that goal and accomplish it. He doesn’t hurt me physically, but it’s a pain to impress that one person you love.
I still have memories with him. I’ve known him forever, but I started to feel different around him last year. I remember sitting in a place over the summer just to get away from everybody else, and I thought it would be cool to just bounce on it while I eat. My crush, who was the last to get the food, sat by me. I had so much fun that day, and I felt really close to him. But I don’t think he even remembers, like it was years ago and it’s just something that happens everyday.
I hope he changes his mind, opens his heart and let me keep it safe. I love him more than the close friendship he has now, and I hope he sees me for something else, and realize that our hands could fit so perfectly in each others.
I'm thinking of leaving Gaia. . .
and coming back three years later.
ooshy ooshy ooshy  Mokochocolatte · Sat Feb 14, 2009 @ 08:39pm · 0 Comments |
