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So today (Or rather, yesterday), I really felt sad over the distance between Katie and I. I had set a goal to see her before summer, but it appears that goal is impossible to reach now. It was a promise I had hoped to keep, but failed to. Katie understands, as much as she wants to see me, so I'm glad about that. ^^

It reminds me of what my aunt said about it... "You need to set a more realistic goal." I hate to admit it, but I wish she wasn't right all the time. Going to see Katie was a goal I really wanted to succeed in, I could have proved lots of people wrong about how I am. Circumstances, such as no job, no money, etc... forced me to resign to the fact that it will be a while before I do get to see her. She's worth waiting for, though. ^^

Two days until our two-month anniversary. I need to think of something to do for her. I had gone into this not looking for something long-term, but I guess I found love instead - That's a good thing, by the way. <3 I'm happier than I've ever been, but I know I could still be happier still. It's always a little sad to remember constantly that over 1500 miles separate us... I've found myself actually thinking about walking/skating all the way there, just to get away from my everyday life and see her. That would be such a great day, but the trip would be so long and hard. She's worried about where I'll stay, how she'll tell her parents about me, etc..., but that's stuff I don't want to think about. I wouldn't really care, as long as I was able to see her.

Depressing thoughts, but I think knowing she's waiting for me too makes it easier to bear. I'm still pretty happy, but until I do see her, I'll always be a little sad too.

I love you, Katie. <333