Wow looking back over the past 6 months or so I have been so heartless. I just wish I could be more out there and show other the true caring that I have for them underneath it all. I don't know if anyone has even noticed this but I care so much about other people I will act the idiot to make them feel better. I know this is locally insane but I don't think I can help it. What I have done in that past is something I can't change. But to see others laugh and make them joyful is worth the small pain and social disgrace I get. But I have hardened my heart so much I don't feel the pain, nor do I feel the happiness I used to feel when I made others happy. So I guess this is my little bit of advise, don't be heartless. It brings such sorrow. I guess above all, I wish to be seen as something more then I have made myself. But that is something I don't really want. But when you live a heartless life as a person with so much emotion, it hurts. To live a life on the edge of constant crying is the worst life to live. I have nothing more to prove.
Erogassa · Wed Apr 06, 2005 @ 04:29am · 4 Comments |