I don't know anymore. My family has feel to soo much s**t..... I can't believe, I really truely cried today until my eyes burn and my soul felt clean. I guess that what happens when the person you love most in this world tells you that they hate you, and are conviced by so ******** idea that has been drilled into there brain that you don't care for them either. How can I tell her how I feel and make her understand. She never trustes me anymore and she only brings up past hate. I can't even sit down and have a plesant conversation with her. How can I say "Mom I truely love and care for you!" and make her believe. And then worst of all with I cry... no one is there to hold me, confort me, and I guess no one cares.... I feel... cold. Oh well I'll get over it i'm sorry to burden anyone, i'll find a way to solve it. 3nodding
Erogassa · Wed Mar 23, 2005 @ 02:10am · 7 Comments |