My heart hurts like it's been stabbed. I go about my days wondering why some of the things that happen even happen. I feel like breaking down and giving up on everything. I have two friends who I'm worried about to where it makes me feel sick. My friend Casey's in the hospital for overdosing on sleeping pills cause she was depressed and Ashley...she's not the same this year. I don't want to go in more detail than that. My boy friend can't call me anymore unless it's the weekends because he free minutes don't start till 9 his time which is 12 a.m my time. He clearly told me at the beginning that his parents don't care about his bill, and I even said "are you sure?" and he still said "yes" and now look.
I feel so depressed I can't eat. I skip dinner most of the time all of a sudden. I'm hungry but I don't want to eat. I used to do this a long time ago when I was depressed. My mom's even talking about giving away my dog, yet again. It's my dog! I love that dog like a real person. He's the best dog in the world and I love him to death. I cried like a baby when my mom started talking again of giving him away. That dog loves me too, when ever he's lonely he runs to me, in a crowd full of people, he runs to me still. He sees me like a mom almost, I've had him since he was a baby. My mom even said when I move out I can keep him.
Why is it every time something makes me happy it gets ruined because of selfish arrogant people?
I'm tired of having a limit with who I date with talking on the phone. Me and my ex had a limit with everything. We could only talk for 1 hour and 30 minutes from 7 p.m to 8:30 p.m, and it wasn't my parent's say so, it was his. And I feel trapped like I can't run from the past now that it feels like the past is repeating its self. I don't want to lose Corey because his parents don't like me or something and I don't want him to get tired of me and my depression when I get it.
I want to marry this guy some day so badly cry
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