Things have gotten out of hand again.. I just don't know how much more i can take before i snap.. yesterday Sara helped me "release" a week and 1/2 worth of stress and frustration that was building up, and today because of something that happen first of all between her and her parents then with her and Anon, i'm very stressed out and trying not to break down. I have these feeling which i'm trying to keep bottled up because if i let them out chances are i'm going to end up doing some stupid (Not suicide) and i'll end up regretting it for the rest of my life, There are other feelings i have right now that are known but they are causing me more pain the i can handle right now.. i mean my heart is physically hurting over this..
My heart knows what it wants.. and it needs it more then ever.. but that "someone" isn't or rather doesn't feel that same way right now.. I just wish that this dark cloud that is over me would GO AWAY.. its also causing me stress, at this point i don't know what it's about.. it makes me sick to think about it.. and the Anxiety is not helping me at all either
I'm glad that i have friends around me like Sara and Anon to help, But even with their help it still hurts a lot.. i would love one of these days to actually write something in here that didn't make me sound like a bloody Emo.. which btw I AM NOT!!! Labels are for soup cans.. and if you try and Label me.. i'll get Sara to make you into soup.. and then i'll be sure to labels you.. as SOUP!! <sighs>
And as for the whole sex thing.. as of yesterday i'm feeling a better.. but i know that in a week - a week & 1/2 i'm going to end up "needing help" again and i'm not sure what i'm going to do then O.O *ponders* X_X yeah i'm "screwed" no pun intended.
Anyway.. i guess thats my rant for today..
This is Raven Dragonfire for Channel 13 News Signing off...
 Raven DragonFire · Tue Jun 05, 2007 @ 08:06am · 0 Comments |
