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Last night was continuation and my friends, Krista and Brianna and some others asked this one guy, who was my former-friend, if he'd like to dance with me. he said he would if i'd teach him how to dance. then later, when all the parents were gone, he still had his certificates and stuff and asked us where to put it. I still had my stuff too so i told him to put it in the bleachers where i put my stuff. I'm guessing he pretended to be confused because he asked me to show him where i put my stuff. so we're all walking alone and he keeps on laughing and smiling at me like crazy. I just pretend i don't know about asking him for the dance and so I keep on saying what. later, he keeps trying to talk to me and stuff but on the same road, i think he was ignoring me because he would always go the opposite way I'm going. then, in the last 10 minutes of the dance, it was a slow dance, Eric dances with this 2 girls who i really dispise(sp). Dancing! First I felt really numb for some hours after i saw that, like didn't know to be happy, mad, sad, who knows. I know Eric saw me cause he was looking RIGHT at me when he was dancing.

Then when the dance ended, I went to go get my stuff. His stuff is right on top of mine so i had a hard time figuring out what was mine. along with that, i was *kinda* sneaking through his stuff but not that much . Then I write i kinda message to him on his stuff writing about how i felt. Then I see a shadow behind me, and it's Eric looking at me writing on his stuff. I just get and leave him while he keeps on staring at me. When I got home, I went to bed right away, laid there, but was awake for 6 hours straight until about 4:40.
This morning I was talking to his best friend Jessica. She said he's going to Seattle to visit, and won't come back until June 15th, the day before my birthday which i was going to invite him for. She told me she's gonna tell him today, how i felt and stuff. But I really wanted to tell him myself how I felt. What should I do. Please help me.