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my life is in here.....now to surch for my reason to be....
The folowings may contain subjects that might seem stupid or useless to you.
This is me: Shenrod
I... Shenrod Usolemn
is a lost 16 year old guy
that lives every where
and any where...
Why?
Beacaus!
Beacaus I ran away...
Away from those 2...
who woldn' t stop putting
scars into my broken soul...
now...
the onely thing that rilly
maters to me
is the ones how talk to me...
Freinds...

How ever is reeding this...
i' d love to meet you!
...I' v desided to right the things i' m suposed to right in my jurnal in the coments section...
...but now it detected a comment flud...just have to right in the other pages...






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commentCommented on: Wed Jul 06, 2005 @ 12:04am
Hi


commentCommented on: Sat Jul 09, 2005 @ 06:31pm
Right now i' m relly bumed out cause of somethingg that happened. It all started a few days ago... When i meat this cool and yet yuneak looking girl. She was all alone in her thread that she just finished creating. We then started to talk, then i reolized that i relly like talking to her... :oops: :big: Then we started with the hugings. Then it when on with the hugs and kisses... :big: :oops: :big: .Then on day, about 3 or 4 days later she PMed me asking if i liked her more than a freind. :oops: :big:Of course i thot for a long time... And i finally said YES! I was so happy...It almost seems imposible. ME, HAPPY. Then i always PMed her saying things like I LOVE YOU or HUGS AND KISSES and all the other stuff we had to say! She knew how old i was and i knew how old she was, she knew my name and i knew her name. BUT ONE DAY... one day she PMed me with the title WE RELLY NEED TO TALK. She tolled me that she wasn' t supposed to talk to me the way we where...And her parents where relly made at her...She said that if i ever PMed her once again they would report me to the MODS. She also said that she wasn' t alowed to talk to me anymore and finnished with I' M RELLY SORRY. T_T That night i cried my ten thousand tears. Everything...perfect...and now... :cry: ...It' s all gone. The one i love. Banished away from me. :cry: I didn' t give up! I still whent in her threads but GAIA dodn' t accepted me. Day by day i was and still am dieing...She was one of the onley people that talked to me. :cry: She was the onley reson i continued to go on GAIA. Just later i couldn' t take it anymore so i disided to PM her but once again i was forebidden. Now the onley whey i could comunicate with her is with my freind...He' s a messenger but up to now i got no answer... :cry: I can' t sleep anymore!... Just feel like barfing my useles life out of me, just feel like dieing...DIEING...dieing... :cry: T_T :cry: T_T I LOVE HER SO MUCH AND SHALL NNEVER FORGET HER! ... :cry: ...



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commentCommented on: Sat Jul 09, 2005 @ 11:56pm
........... crying


commentCommented on: Tue Jul 12, 2005 @ 05:31pm
hey give me her name and i will pm her for u...i won't start of talking about u..i'll just say hi but i can be a messenger biggrin



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commentCommented on: Sun Jul 24, 2005 @ 03:51am
If you want help just ask me....


commentCommented on: Sun Jul 31, 2005 @ 09:18pm
aww. i'm sorry that didn't work out....that really sucks.... cry i really don't know what to say though......



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commentCommented on: Wed Aug 03, 2005 @ 01:31am
Oh well...at leaast i foud love once again...but if ever i get dumped again((it will naver happen!HAHA! whee ))and that i fall agin...well i think i' l deside to never get up, ever!


commentCommented on: Tue Aug 09, 2005 @ 03:04am
Sometimes i feel like KILLING my selfe cause i sucke like crape!!! I' M NOTHING BUT A ******** b*****d!!!!NOTHING!!!...nothing...i don' t want to lose friends, to creat tears of pain....But i' m the Devil and i can' t do anything to make people happy...NOTHING!!!....but why?...i' m an a*****e...a ******** b*****d!!!Not too long ago...i think i just lost an other friend*pours tears of pain*...


The only person on gaia that matters for me has another girlfriend. But I love him to death. Everytime he holds me I melt. What to do? I dont know, I care only about his feelings. I never want to hurt him. I wish he would feel the same for me... But this is how life is for me, and always was...not happy...
But you know what, I will try to forget him and start with a new!
Who are you, who am I? I am the girl that forgot him........

I didn' t want to...but i ddid! Mad her miserible...Like allways with other people....I HATE MY SELF SO MUCH NOW!!!! ALL MY ******** FAULT!!!



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commentCommented on: Tue Aug 09, 2005 @ 03:10am
I hate my self...i' m such a worthless kid...nothing else to do in my ******** misrible life so i go and creat pain! ******** should leave people alone!!!b*****d!


commentCommented on: Tue Aug 09, 2005 @ 03:23am
I...i really don' t know what to do anymore... cry ...i...don' t want...i want to stop the creation of tears and pain i do to others...i ...should just.....die....yeah....die....but i don' t want to...i want to live but i' l creat pain and misery!... cry ...



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commentCommented on: Tue Aug 09, 2005 @ 03:39am
...*sighs*.........Better to be alone than be with some one and making that person misrible......i guess... cry ...I' m lonsome ........i think...i don' t know anymore... cry ...Don' t count for this world!


commentCommented on: Wed Aug 10, 2005 @ 12:31am
babe stop saying u make people cry.. if you didnt none of us would talk to you.. and if u die.. kenta and i will cry.. ur one of our best friends.. crying please dont kill ur self...lots of love form kenta and me^.^



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commentCommented on: Thu Aug 11, 2005 @ 02:46am
*Runs in circles screeming*...I DON' T WANNA SCHOOL TO START... gonk ...cause when it does... cry ...i won' t be able to get online as often...CAUSE CRAZY SCHOOL MAKES US WORK THE S*** OUT OF US!!!.....AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR
RHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.......................... gonk .. crying ..... crying .....NNNNNNNNOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!! crying crying crying


commentCommented on: Thu Aug 11, 2005 @ 02:54am
...bordum is upon me...ssssssssssssssssoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo...what to right....Hmmmm...*thinks*.........



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commentCommented on: Thu Aug 11, 2005 @ 02:56am
............*still thinks*...............


commentCommented on: Thu Aug 11, 2005 @ 03:26am
.........*still thinks*..................*then bbbbbbbiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiig sighs*.......Oh...man...i miss all my gaia friends! gonk crying



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commentCommented on: Thu Aug 11, 2005 @ 12:53pm
..............*sighss*.........lonsom crying


commentCommented on: Fri Aug 12, 2005 @ 08:41pm
I hate my self...i' m such a worthless kid...nothing else to do in my ******** misrible life so i go and creat pain! ******** should leave people alone!!!b*****d!
I...i really don' t know what to do anymore... ...i...don' t want...i want to stop the creation of tears and pain i do to others...i ...should just.....die....yeah....die....but i don' t want to...i want to live but i' l creat pain and misery!... ...
...*sighs*.........Better to be alone than be with some one and making that person misrible......i guess... ...I' m lonsome ........i think...i don' t know anymore... ...Don' t count for this world!

Shenrod..... *gives u a big hug* Don't die.... u don't cause pain and missure.... not to me at least.... u shouldn't think like this.... I used to and it is really depressing.... if u want, I can try to help cheer u up.... just PM me if u want ur Kitty friend to help make u feel better *meow*... oh yeah, and redface (inside joke)



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commentCommented on: Fri Aug 12, 2005 @ 08:44pm
*Runs in circles screeming*...I DON' T WANNA SCHOOL TO START... ...cause when it does... ...i won' t be able to get online as often...CAUSE CRAZY SCHOOL MAKES US WORK THE S*** OUT OF US!!!.....AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR
RHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.......................... .. ..... .....NNNNNNNNOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!

*grabs u and shakes ur sholders* Stop! Get a hiold of ur self! LOL! U r lucky... I have already started school! LOL!


commentCommented on: Sat Aug 13, 2005 @ 03:34pm
I am f***** bored so i desided to right what ever passes thou me smal minde just to get more and more gold in order to donate to all me gaia friends that are questing for a particular item for each of then inless there all quwesting for all the same item but that is imposible cause i know what all of my gaia friends are questing for and thos questing items finih out to be all diffrent items witch means that all of the questing items curently questing are all difrent witch means all of the questing items that my gaia friends are curently questing are not the same witch means that all of the questing items curently questing are all difrent witch means all of the questing items that my gaia friends are curently questing are not the same witch means all of the questing items curently questing are all difrent witch means all of the questing items that my gaia friends are curently questing are not the same witch means that all of the questing items curently questing are all difrent witch 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my gaia friends are curently questing are not the same witch means all of the questing items curently questing are all difrent witch means all of the questing items that my gaia friends are curently questing are not the same witch means that all of the questing items curently questing are all difrent witch means all of the questing items that my gaia friends are curently questing are not the same witch means all of the questing items that my gaia friends are curently questing are not the same witch means that all of the questing items curently questing are all difrent witch means all of the questing items that my gaia friends are curently questing are not the same witch means all of the questing items curently questing are all difrent witch means all of the questing items that my gaia friends are curently questing are not the same witch means that all of the questing items curently questing are all difrent witch means all of the questing items that my gaia friends are curently questing are not the same witch means all of the questing items curently questing are all difrent witch means all of the questing items that my gaia friends are curently questing are not the same witch means that all of the questing items curently questing are all difrent witch means all of the questing items that my gaia friends are curently questing are not the same witch means all of the questing items curently questing are all difrent witch means all of the questing items that my gaia friends are curently questing are not the same witch means that all of the questing items curently questing are all difrent witch means all of the questing items that my gaia friends are curently questing are not the same witch means... Oh NM...this is way too long...and to say all of that was onley one phrase...inless.....NM again...i hope all of this will give me a lot of gold...i hope so :stare: ...it better!.....I' m ready to beat that i won' t even gain more than 50GOLD!!! But we shall see...i' l post to you readers ....bla...bla...bla...this is all too long! I F***** MISS MY GAIA FRIENDS!!!!! T_T T_T T_T T_T T_T T_T T_T T_T T_T



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commentCommented on: Sat Aug 13, 2005 @ 03:42pm
I F***** MISS MY GAIA FRIENDS!!!!!

*gives u a big hug* I am here.... and I won't leave.....


commentCommented on: Sat Aug 13, 2005 @ 07:01pm
I' m keeping 2 dead threads alive by my self! gonk crying gonk



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commentCommented on: Sat Aug 13, 2005 @ 07:02pm
I F***** MISS MY GAIA FRIENDS!!!!!

*gives u a big hug* I am here.... and I won't leave.....

YAY! blaugh *hugs tightly!*


commentCommented on: Sat Aug 13, 2005 @ 07:51pm
whee whee *sorry just felt like doing that* And if you ever need some one to help you with threads call me , im on my way! cool



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commentCommented on: Sat Aug 13, 2005 @ 09:42pm
I F***** MISS MY GAIA FRIENDS!!!!!

*gives u a big hug* I am here.... and I won't leave.....

YAY! *hugs tightly!*

*hugs back* *prrr*


commentCommented on: Wed Aug 17, 2005 @ 03:47am
I F***** MISS MY GAIA FRIENDS!!!!!

*gives u a big hug* I am here.... and I won't leave.....

YAY! *hugs tightly!*

*hugs back* *prrr*
Hahaha...((what the helll is :*prrr*)) question question question



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commentCommented on: Wed Aug 17, 2005 @ 03:48am
icon_whee.gif icon_whee.gif *sorry just felt like doing that* And if you ever need some one to help you with threads call me , im on my way!

YAY! blaugh You roght! *hugs*


commentCommented on: Thu Aug 18, 2005 @ 02:32am
whee whee *sorry just felt like doing that* And if you ever need some one to help you with threads call me , im on my way!

YAY! You roght! *hugs*
Roght??/ Oh well! *hugs* whee 4laugh



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commentCommented on: Thu Aug 18, 2005 @ 11:53pm
Would you pleas donat to me? If you do i shall be forever greatfull to you.*bows down to you all*
All the friends i' m helping even tho they don' t wanna!
[+] Shribster [+], angel_baby2, LokisSister, Nekokito, crispy4eva

and more to come whee


commentCommented on: Thu Aug 18, 2005 @ 11:57pm
icon_whee.gif icon_whee.gif *sorry just felt like doing that* And if you ever need some one to help you with threads call me , im on my way!

YAY! You roght! *hugs*
Roght??/ Oh well! *hugs* icon_whee.gif icon_4laugh.gif


sweatdrop sorry...i suck at grammar... sweatdrop
Roght=verb right in the passed tense



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commentCommented on: Fri Aug 19, 2005 @ 02:03am
*sits down on the floor and looks down like a toy with no power*......i' m..........so...........lonsom.........................i' m alone here............ cry ........alone...


commentCommented on: Fri Aug 19, 2005 @ 02:13am
I HOPE YOUR READING THIS HARUKO...CAUSE IF YOU ARE... crying THANKS crying ........i' m sooooooooooooooooo alone............i miss my friends!!!



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commentCommented on: Fri Aug 19, 2005 @ 04:05am
MORGLES! *huggles you* Believe it or not I read this whole thing, reading will expand your brain! I AM SO SORRY!!!!! crying I AM SO SORRY I HURT YOU!!!!!!!!! gonk crying gonk *hugglez u lotz and never let's go* I dare anyone else to huggle you and they will BURN! *eyes turn to fire, calms down, then does happy dance* Btw, do you like White Zombie? question ? question ? question ? FLOOGNA!


commentCommented on: Fri Aug 19, 2005 @ 09:52pm
MORGLES! *huggles you* Believe it or not I read this whole thing, reading will expand your brain! I AM SO SORRY!!!!! icon_crying.gif I AM SO SORRY I HURT YOU!!!!!!!!! icon_gonk.gif icon_crying.gif icon_gonk.gif *hugglez u lotz and never let's go* I dare anyone else to huggle you and they will BURN! *eyes turn to fire, calms down, then does happy dance* Btw, do you like White Zombie? icon_question.gif ? icon_question.gif ? icon_question.gif ? FLOOGNA!

YAY! you roght too...i' m so happy...and lonely....and bored...and...oh man...*sighs*...... crying ..... crying ..... crying ... crying



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commentCommented on: Sat Aug 20, 2005 @ 12:01am
...i' m soooooooooooooo bored...every body started school and i' m aaaaaaaaaalllllllllllllllllllllllllll aaaaalllllllllllllllllllloooooooooooooooooooooooonnnnnnnnnnnnnnnneeee... crying crying crying crying crying crying crying crying crying


commentCommented on: Sat Aug 20, 2005 @ 12:35am
O.K...now i' m really bored...i' m talking alone in a dead thread!



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commentCommented on: Sat Aug 20, 2005 @ 05:34pm
I F***** MISS MY GAIA FRIENDS!!!!!

*gives u a big hug* I am here.... and I won't leave.....

YAY! *hugs tightly!*

*hugs back* *prrr*
Hahaha...((what the helll is :*prrr*))

Prr is a cat prr... what dead thred r u on... I will join u if u want


commentCommented on: Sun Aug 21, 2005 @ 02:05am
I HOPE YOUR READING THIS HARUKO...CAUSE IF YOU ARE... crying THANKS crying ........i' m sooooooooooooooooo alone............i miss my friends!!!
Thanks to me? For what? Your not ALONE! Im alwqays here with ya! blaugh *hugs*



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commentCommented on: Sun Aug 21, 2005 @ 03:28am
I HOPE YOUR READING THIS HARUKO...CAUSE IF YOU ARE... icon_crying.gif THANKS icon_crying.gif ........i' m sooooooooooooooooo alone............i miss my friends!!!
Thanks to me? For what? Your not ALONE! Im alwqays here with ya! icon_blaugh.gif *hugs*
*hugs her*...you know...you better run cause that Loki' s Sister will bern you....B-carefull! wink


commentCommented on: Sun Aug 21, 2005 @ 07:47pm
I HOPE YOUR READING THIS HARUKO...CAUSE IF YOU ARE... icon_crying.gif THANKS icon_crying.gif ........i' m sooooooooooooooooo alone............i miss my friends!!!
Thanks to me? For what? Your not ALONE! Im alwqays here with ya! icon_blaugh.gif *hugs*
*hugs her*...you know...you better run cause that Loki' s Sister will bern you....B-carefull!
sweatdrop uh oh...



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commentCommented on: Sun Aug 21, 2005 @ 10:14pm
WHat did I do to deserve to be burned?? Oh well....*sits down and waits to be burned sence no one cares* 3nodding


commentCommented on: Mon Aug 22, 2005 @ 03:28am
WHat did I do to deserve to be burned?? Oh well....*sits down and waits to be burned sence no one cares*

Hey! I care! And if your wondering...just read what Loki' s Sister said!



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commentCommented on: Mon Aug 22, 2005 @ 03:54am
Yea I know, I just wanted to see if ya cared... 3nodding


commentCommented on: Mon Aug 22, 2005 @ 06:48pm
stare you think i hate you or what?



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commentCommented on: Mon Aug 22, 2005 @ 09:26pm
um... what happend to ur cloths... stare


commentCommented on: Tue Aug 23, 2005 @ 12:18am
um... what happend to ur cloths... stare

well...
1-i' m Persocom PCN-676-4' s slave
2- i try to donat my things and gold i have to LokisSister cause she really needs everything we can give her...but she allways refuses! stare evil
3- Let' s not forget i' m kinda your slave as well... stare ...oh boy...
4-it' s less atractive!
5-and i live in a old brocken house!!!
6-cause i' m poor and i ran away from home.... rofl
7-i think that' s all question



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commentCommented on: Tue Aug 23, 2005 @ 02:26am
I' m so lonly right now...no friends....no one...and school starts in 2 days...i' l be able to get on what? Once or twice a week...this is really a bummer... cry ...*HUGS ALL OH MY GAIA FRIENDS 4laugh *all my boy gaia friends guys...DON' T GET ANY IDEAS!!!
*or shackes there hands*


commentCommented on: Thu Aug 25, 2005 @ 03:53pm
Hey, Shenrod. I know how it feels, so you're not alone. And if you ever need someone to talk to, you know where to find me, ok? ok. Don't hesitate to pm if you need to just let it all out. It has been proven that I'm good for two things, listening to others and being a punching bag for others. So don't keep it inside, talk to someone who cares. *lots of hugs*



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commentCommented on: Thu Aug 25, 2005 @ 10:11pm
Spykey Man:
*stand in font a big cliff*
don't worry it will hurt me more then you
*jump off*
Shenrod:
*catches your hand*IF YOU DIE, I DIE!


commentCommented on: Fri Sep 08, 2006 @ 11:56pm
awww cry w *huggles you*



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