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Well, I've been wanting to write in this lately, but when i start to think about what i want to write about; I get suddenly very lazy. Truth is that lately I've been under a tremendous amount of spiritual attack. I have no idea where it's all coming from. I wonder to myself at times if the Lord has something really good for me planned on the way. Maybe evil spirits who see it coming are trying to prevent me from getting it somehow. Or, maybe oppress and depress me so that I can have no joy when my blessing comes. Well, I have really been trying to encourage myself in the Lord. At times, it's not always easy. A few scriptures have been coming to mind recently.
1. they that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as an eagle. they shall run and not be weary, they shall walk and not faint
and also
2. there is no temptation which is come to you except that which is common to man. For God will not suffer you to be tempted beyond that which ye are able, but with the temptation will also provide a way of escape; that ye may be able to bear it.
3. for God, who commanded the light to shine out of darkness, hath shined in our hearts, to give the light of the knowledge of the glory of God in the face ofJesus Christ.
but we ahve this treasure in earthen vessels, that the excellency of the power may be of God, and not of us.
We are troubled on every side, yet not distressed; we are perplexed, but not in despair;
persecuted, but not forsaken; cast down, but not destroyed;
always bearing about in the body teh dying of the Lord Jesus, that the life also of Jesus may be made manifest in our body.
I really need to just get back to having some time set aside for the Lord. I must admit I am guilty of not always giving his fair share of private time alone with me. How can i serve him and represent him, when I am not before him daily to be blessed and recharged anew?
For any who have known me for a long time, I have had many issues with my church family for a number of years. Recently, I have felt a call to be in church. Not to learn about God.. I don't need church for that. But.. just for the sake of edifying the body of Christ. And, even if i feel like I don't need it; maybe there is someone there who needs me... that I am supposed to be there for..It's kind of funny tho. Every so often, people from church come in my store. They ask how I am and if i want to visit again soon. I do... but when i want to go and need a ride and call someone, none of them are ever able to come get me. Still, when i search my heart, I feel there is a great battle going on. And, there is something trying pretty hard to withstand me going. At first, I let that something beset my desire to go. However, with things that have been transpiring in my life, I need to overcome these obstacles. I'm not sure how to manage it. Still, I am feeling much more encouraged.
The other day i was feeling so discouraged. I guess it's like how proverbs says that hope deferred maketh the heart sick.. but there is also a proverb that says laughter doeth the heart good like a medicine... so... i guess with hope deferred we just need a little extra hugs and laugther. Of course, I am one of the type of people who take life way too serious most of teh time. So, laughing to compensate for the deferrment which I endure might be a challenge... Oh my soul, I must rise to this challenge...
 Graceangel · Wed Jun 01, 2005 @ 01:19pm · 0 Comments |
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