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Why don't I get something in return? I've been a good guy all my life. never did any drug what so ever tried my hardest to have good friends, tried my hardest in school, yet I am going to die young or I'm goin to die alone just because I can't communicate crying

For some reason Micheru is just not communicating with me. shes definately ignoring me and well it pisses me off but she persists I mean I don't want to get mad at her for it but is soooooo freakin hard not to when she even says your a loner not a person. Sigh why can't I get l;ucky and have one girl that is deeply in love with me and we share a healthy relationship. I'd even try my best to treat her right I mean thats the job of a good guy right but all girls want the nice looking bad guy right. it makes me sick how people change into this weird thing that pleg men. crying why can't I get someone to lean on. Micheru I just wanted to know you, I want to devote everything to you. I plan to go to NY anyway. I know you dont share personal stuff but I just to meet I am no freak and you shouldn't say that becuase im a weak hearted fool and I like you a lot.