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Lately, I've been pretty depressed, as well as depressing to be around. I had some pretty bad news. Someone I love dearly is dying. Because of that, I had pushed everyone away from me...I didn't want to be hurt anymore. That tore me down enough as it was...I wanted to just be alone. Mostly because I already knew I would be after he died. What would be the point of making it such a shock, when I can just adjust to being alone now? I did something horrible, and ended up pushing the one person that meant the most to me out of my life...

Einstein had theorized that time is relative to the observer. Existentialism proposes that everything is but a mere thought. I've decided to dedicate my life into making his last 4 months last a long time...not through pain and misery, but happiness. Love... Family. Things that one needs. I don't want him to be alone. Not now...Not ever. Making his time (as well as mine) relevant to us both. Time is what you make of it, despite it's length. I want to make it matter to both of us.