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That something terribly wrong is going to happen soon? Or also that feeling where you want something, but you don't know what? Or that you do know what you want, but you can't have it? Yeah. It's a confused emotion. C: But it's not the first thing on my mind today.
The first thing would be.... I have a headache. And I'm tired. And I bit my cheek... several times. Rather hard. It kinda hurts, and I don't want to eat anything even though I'm getting a little hungry. =w=
Tomorrow, if it's dry, I'm going to finish putting up the swings that my dad didn't quite finish. Er.... Actually, it's dark by the time I get home from driving school, isn't it? This project might have to wait until next weekend... Boo. I love swinging.
My dad left today, and I'm not sure if I'm sad or not. I feel guilty, I think. For not spending more time with him. And... I don't know. I kindof don't know what I feel anymore. It's just nothing. Hah. But if there was one thing I could say, it's that I wish he were here more often, like most dads do... I need a nap.
My mom also has been very sick. She caught a cold and it went all the way to bronchitis. And she only stayed home from work for two days; said that she couldn't afford to miss more work. I know why it got so bad. And I'm really worried. She's better now, I hope. She won't let anyone take her temperature. Again, it's brought thoughts on of what I'd do if she weren't here anymore. Life would not be the same at all. But there's nothing I can do.
ANYWAYS. I've been watching "Devil Beside You". It's a show from Taiwan or something based off of the manga "Akuma de Soro" or "The Devil Does Exist". It's my FAVORITE. LIKE EVER. -Squee.- >w< ... -Ahem.- Anyways, I've been watching the show and it's great. <3 My favorite quote that Ahmon (AKA: Takeru) said was, "I can't stop danger from happening, but I can protect you. Then, you won't even be aware or the real danger." I was like, "Awwwwh ;w;!" (Shutup. I like romantic stories.) It's great.
I keep staring at my shirt. I bought it yesterday and it's grey with silver threads in it. And it's shiny/sparkly. I love it. And my new jeans too. My old ones were too big for me (surprisingly) so I bought a size down. Still comfy, and they're not falling off of me. Perfect!
Oh, also, I think I caught the stupid cold ug going around the house FINALLY. Or maybe it'll be like last time and annoy the heck out of me, but not make me sick sick. </3 My throat hurts.
Ohoh, and also, the big thing I see happening sometime soon isn't going to be a whole lot of fun. It's going to set me where I want to be, but I'm afraid that people will be hurt when all is said and done. I'm not sure if I should start preventing it and holding it off, or if I should go with it and work things out as they go along. I'm more of a "go with the flow" person anyway, but I do want something, so I guess I'm going to have to fight for it. Fighting against myself, too.
And that, ladies and gentlemen, was what happens when I allow myself to ramble and think. Goodnight, and have a pleasant tomorrow.
 bittersweet93 · Sun Feb 17, 2008 @ 07:21pm · 1 Comments |
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