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I'm seeing things again..or rather I have a really active imagination. I've seen that cursed commercial again. The one on Spirit Photography...Shutter....>.< Scary s**t..now I'm all paranoid and I think I'm seeing things. This really can't be good for my health, I need to stop this. Why can I see these things? I really wish I couldn't....I've been hoping forever to get rid of this cursed sight to see things we are not suppose to see.

I remember the first time I've seen them. 11 years ago...in Mexico, in my mother's house. That place has some history. A buried married couple under the door. A used to be orphanage, and dead siblings of hers that died during childbirth. So it would be only natural....that shouldn't be the word right now, I don't know the word, but its.....fitting.

Want to know the most ironic part of this. Its during Christmas night...I see a golden light and two figures jumping on the bottom part of my bed....its no other than my twin sisters. Its too bright for me to see their faces..but they might have looked like me...or not, I don't know anymore. I was tired too, so I didn't pay much attention and went back to sleep.

However....after that, I saw them more often, it took a few more years, but I still saw them. Especially at the old Rush Copley Hospital near Bardwell Elementary School. I would look up and see someone on the window, or the curtains move. Its an old hospital, once again, fitting for it to happen. Also the house I happen to live in as in right now.....Explain to me that if its normal to hear someone walk up and down the stairs when EVERYONE in your house is out and you are by yourself in the living room. You can bet I ran up to my room, locked the door and hid under the covers.

Then...that BLASTED MIRROR! I got that like a while a while ago.....I never liked it. Hell, I wonder where my mother found this thing anyways..o.O I always knew I had something to worry about in my room. But its my brothers room that has the most activity. Or rather, the entire 2nd floor of my house, which is my mothers, brothers and my room with a bathroom. Hate that bathroom as well, I'll explain later......My brother has his cool Bionicle toys hanging out on the top of the TV shelf...however, I see those move every single day. Okay he's taller than me, but NOT tall enough to reach them without a chair. And my mother and I don't move them unless we are cleaning....I guess this one is probably my imagination then.

The Bathroom, on the other hand. I'm TERRIFIED of. >.< Not only did Andy *stupid Satan stare * TRIED to use the whole Bloody Mary thing on me, I swear I get soo paranoid in that room its not even funny. I get scared to get inside of my bathroom, even for a shower, I HAVE to have some kind of noise there, or else the silence will just eat me up inside, I'll just get so paranoid that I'll probably give myself an asthma attack. I despise the mirror in that room as well, then again I have Catroptophobia, fear of mirrors. >.> I flipping hate them.

Oh God...now my mind, or rather my imagination is going crazy right now, I can't get these images out of my head. I'm trying to drown them out with music or with something else to distract me, but I just CAN'T!!! Its really scaring me right now, I NEED something to distract me. Someone help....please?