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When Mom left I felt like I lost abit of me, Right in the center, like it rot away. About a few years later I forgot about the pain, until the that god forbid feeling came. Love, the most horrible feeling. My First crush didn't want me. She took some Wangsta who smokes and beats her instead. I felt like "She'd rather have that then me?" I felt that hole rip abit. Everytime I had a crush, I was rejected. I was thinking, "no one really wants me.... not one?" The girls always said I wasn't High enough for them...like hell they were? My heart shattered soo slowly. soo slowly. It was so painful for me...After having a few bad grades my dad snapped and said, "YOU ARE SUPPOSE TO RUN MY FUTURE BUISNESS! I MIGHT AS WELL THROW IT DOWN THE F***IN TOILET FOR YOU!" At that moment, my body felt as though I was ripped in half. The person who I loved more than anything in the world....hates me...or thats what I thought. I picked up the knife and tried to slit my throat....I couldn't do it. I was scared. I didn't want to Die. Love gets you so happy, and when you least expect it. It kills you in such a slow way. It kills.