I thought weird thoughts because of loneliness. I made some big decisions...because of loneliness. I went against so many things...loneliness.
I dont know what to think right now. On one side, i could accept the one who caused me nothing but pain but was always there for me. Or I could not and count the minutes for me to see my love again. The second may sound romantic...but it is very hard to do. It is hard to continuously look back at the clock, waiting for certain hands to reach a destination where I was to gain true happiness. I cant help but watch and wait...
Waiting...counting...many thoughts went through my head. Thoughts of the past, thoughts of emotions, thoughts of what certain things were said and done and what will most likely happen again. I will call myself a fool for giving him one last chance to be connected with me, if he so chooses to accept. If he doesnt, then I'm fine with that. He does not have me on a leash or under his control.
If waiting for my love to come to me will hurt just a little bit, then i will wait for an eternity.
Minamino Teku · Sat Apr 05, 2008 @ 08:05am · 1 Comments |