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Here's the scenario: There is this guy Jim. I used to like him with a passion for so long. Finally we get to go out and he blows me off and never calls me and breaks my heart. Then after 3 months of hoping it would get better, I broke up with him. Ever since we never talked. Then after almost half a year he out of no where calls and wants to hang with all his old friends, after moving a town away. Unfortunately, I have this friend Tommy. After Jim, our friendship grew to more of I wanna be with you but every god damn things is keeping us from being happy situation. Now After Tom and I went through this crazy flirty thing while he liked so many other girls and was dating this total b***h, he told me he didn't like me. So i thought well I want him to be happy, so I hook him up with this girl Ashley. Now Jim's back and we all hung out today. I realized my feelings never completely faded for him. That's normal with your first HUGE crush. Now we played truth or dare, I found out Jim still likes me and wants to be with me again. I also find out Tommy lied about not liking me. So now I'm having a total breakdown. The truth is I like Tommy more than Jim. I also haven't seen Jim in 6 months. My emotions are whirring like crazy. I regret hooking him up with Ashley, I wish I had known he was just confused. There isn't much I can do though because the only way I could be with Tommy is if I betrayed Ashley or she broke up with him. But Tom would have to be cruel to her to get her to do that, and that's not cool at all. Now Jim is waiting on me. I told him I needed some time to think, because he hurt me once which effected me for a long time, and I don't want it to happen again. I don't know what to do. It was like the good old days accept all this drama is punching me in the face again. I like both of them, but Tommy more. But I never got anywhere with Jim and I still have feelings for him, but I don't want to hurt anymore. I am so confused. I wish when Tom had asked me to dance that I had just said yes. Maybe then we would have been together and I wouldn't have to cry myself to sleep until I can figure out which one of my friends to take and which to betray. I know my real choice is Jim because he is the single one but I feel like I have forgotten him some what and my feelings aren't as strong as they used to be. I really want to be with Tom, but I stupidly hooked him up and threw him far away from me. I feel so horrible. Like I am going to throw up I don't know what to do... redface


FORGET THAT JIM CAN GO ******** HIMSELF XP