Heres my next avi, after a while of wearing this, I'll swap it out for a bit ^^
If Megan is making that art though, I'll keep this outfit for as long as possible... Maybe I should swap now, and come back to this avi later when the art is done? O.o
Me and Margaret are going to start tagging, Margar. With a big M, I'll do the shading, she will write it out. Were going to practice it some more, but we already did it once and it was sexy. Were going to buy a can of paint each and go down to the train tracks and test it out. I really want to make a symbol or character to add to Margar so theres a bit more of me in there, we talked about that too. Didn't come up with anything yet.
Odd rant start now, I kinda wish margar was a boy, not that I don't like her being a crazy bisexual lesbian wannabe, but I don't trust myself with girls. Its kinda the reason I hate my sister, I make myself hate her so nothing weird ever happens... Long story, don't want to talk about it -_- Ok maybe I do, I kinda want to get it off my chest... When we were kids, I was going to sleep in a sleeping bag with her while my dad was fishing. She though I was asleep and touched me, so I pretended to wake up and then I went to go back to sleep and it happened again, so I left and now I've been scared s**t-less something is going to happen again ever since. So I try to make her hate me in a way... and in a way I've always felt like it was my fault and I was a pervert. I really don't trust myself with girls, I would never do anything against there will, but I'm afraid of what they will let me do. Mind ********, can believe I wrote that. Today it doesn't worry me that much anymore, but it still lingers in the back of my mind. I know I wont do anything with girls besides Megan, but I guess its a fear I've always had, and once I "cheated" on Nezzie I've been a bit more afraid of myself. Its kinda like the fear I have when I walk down the street, my mind goes, "hey Blue, what would happen if you were to jump into oncoming traffic, and then I'm afraid something will make me do it." Theres also the fear that I get while running buy things like fire hydrants, what if I tripped and went face first into that, and then I picture the gory after effects. There a ledge that I have to run by when I come home from Margars that scares the s**t out of me every time I run buy it...
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I'm going to post this before I try to erase it all....
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More odd thinkings
The only girl I feel comfortable with I dubbed my sister so that I couldn't feel comfortable with her, I guess shes just that awesome.
My sister molested me, no wounder I was never sexually comfortable, just another bad experience that raped my mind.
I don't think she remembers this happening, it was to long ago, just a side note....
