Comes the dark. They go hand in hand. And with the darkness comes that feeling that makes it seem as though time is slipping by. If I hesitate, everything will fly by me. If I close my eyes, I'll miss something.
But I'm just sleepy is all. Little lonely. But trust me, it fades fast. And then I forgot I was lonely at all. I'm easily pleased.
TODAY WAS LONG AND I DID NOTHING HOORAY.
I feel like dying. I feel hungry for something other than food. I feel tired. I feel like yelling or crying out or something. I feel like I'm not good enough. I want to be better. I'm not even sure. Emotional mess, I think. I kinda feel numb all at the same time.
I want a hug. Darnit.
UGH.
Let's see, happy thoughts.
I got chinese food. I got cheesecake. Makayla's my best friend and she's the best, my hair played nice today, I've gotten a lot of music fed to me, I watched a movie, I took a nap, I talked to all of my favorite people all at once, I can fit into my sister's size 10 jeans, I've been drawing a lot recently so I'm getting better all the time, tomorrow is Stella's puppy class and I *might* get to go to the shop and hang out, ("the shop" is what I call my uncle's videogame store and I love it becuase all I do is sit on a sofa and watch everyone play games) I browsed a lot of art today and tried to gather all the drawing techniques I could, aaand.... I'm running out of good things. But I made a nice little list. There it is. Dx
I wanna post some pictures in here. :B
OH well. cOuldn't find anything I really wanted to post.
......
My mom is still gone. She won't be home for a long time so I'm free to do what I want, really. I'm going to go grad a water and then.... I think I'd like to just breath in the cool night air.
So I'll sit by the living room window WISHING I could take a walk.
After my water is done I'll came back here and think. And stare at the screen. Until I come up wth something to do.
Gosh, I hate having nothing to do.
I was just assigned stay-up-and-wait duty.
So I shall sit here and wait.
Nyeh.
 bittersweet93 · Sun Apr 13, 2008 @ 04:20am · 0 Comments |
