My love, I think I like Cam too.
Rosy is over him, but I'm not sure.
See I had this dream where you were Cam
And really I want it to happen! Is that bad?
I don't know what my feeling are right now.
Is it just because of the dream? Or is this feeling true some how.
I don't know which I'm more fond of.
Cam, or the idea of being in love.
I'm still waiting for you, there's no need to fear.
But wouldn't it be amazing if you were already here.
If you really were Cam and my feelings are right.
But that's enough of that tonight.
I haven't written to you.
For that I feel bad.
But I've better writing to
An invisible friend.
I want you to read these letters.
I'd rather you have them,
Than he wait for ever
Before he reads them.
So here they are, love.
They're all for you, begining to end.
My silly writings
To an invisible friend.
hey, it's been a while! lol well, i don't think you're really on right now. my friend list says you are but you haven't responded to me message so i don't know. well, i'm lonely and have no one to talk to so is it alright if i tell you my sorrows? lol i got sick again. see a couple weeks ago i had really high fever and everything that comes with a virus. after about a week, all the symptoms were gone except the congestion. then on friday i wasn't feeling well and saturday it got worse. sunday my fever went way high very suddenly. today (monday) it's been better but i'm still sick. i missed school and don't think i'll be able to go tomorrow either. yea...and my family has their own things to do so i'm all alone here at my house and there's no one to talk to! it's kind of depressing! i mean honestly, what can you do when you're sick?! nothing... the only reason i'm online is cuz i have a laptop that can sit in my lap while i lie in bed haha yea... i finished trigun today. i love the ending! the voice of the young knives is the same guy who does hige from wolf's rain. ever seen that series? it' so cool! lol i bought it and LOVE IT!! lol anyway, i guess this is long enough! so i'll talk to you whenever you get on i guess... bye bye
so, i went to the doctor today since i still felt really bad. she said that i have a really bad sinus infection and gave me some medicine for it. i fell alot better now. but still not 100% ya know? i still fell like crap, just not as bad as the past few days. os, i've been watching this anime called utewarerumono. long name, huh? it's pretty cool. i'm about half way through. i also pulled out a couple of my "sick day" movies lol they are just movies from Ghibli films like howl's moving castle and my neightbor totoro. well, i don't have those yet, but i have princess mononoke and castle in the sky. two great one in my opinion (but my favorite will always be howl's moving caslte!) and that's about all that happened today. i've been sleeping the whole time i wasn't at the doctor's. now i'm hungry sad and there's nothing to eat! and i'm alone again! goodness, how much more could i be feeling sorry for myself right now?! lol sorry. i need someone to vent and even though you aren't responding, you're still pretty much the only one on right now that i would even think about wanting to talk to haha so this mesage isn't quite as long as yesterdays but it's still a pretty good size. oh i can just imagine you getting on gaia and seeing that you have like 20 emails and they would all be from the same person! that picture in my mind is so funny! man, that would be awesome! i wanna do it now! hahaha ok well, till next time! tata
well, this time it doesn't say you're on, but i fell really lonely (yea again i know) haha so i'm writing to you. i'm tellin ya, you're gonna get on and have a heck of a lot of pms haha well, let's see what i did today. oh i had to stay home again. yea, it was bad. i felt just terrible this morning so dad said to go to bed instead of trying to go to school. i slept till almost 2 in the after noon! but when i woke up, i was feeling alot better so mom asked me to go pick up my little brother and run errunds and such. then...hm...then i cam home and ate. and i've been watching utawarerumono and as soon as it's finished i'm gonna start watching clannad. then i'm gonna watch wallflower (aka perfect girl evolution) ever heard of it? i've seen part of it. it's really funny! but all the guys look like girls so it's kinda wierd...anyway, (that's my fave word by the way. i don't say it as much online but when i'm talking to someone, if i'm not sure what to say next or want to change the subject or get back on subject since i tend to side track...anyway lol yea i say 'anyway'!) haha a glimps into the life of me haha want another? ok...um...i am a major sweets freak! i love cookies and cakes and pies and stuff! but i can't eat too much or i get sick since i also have somewhat of a weak stomach. over the years it's gotten better but if i over eat or see something REALLY gross, like...idk...that 2 girls 1 cup vid everyone keeps talking about on youtube...i'll loose my lunch (so to speak) yea...hahaha my mum and friends also say i'm like a living anime without the pause button lol not sure y...ok maybe i am but that's beside the point. actually this whole pm is beside the point. what was the point in the first place? anyway...
i'm rambling now...not something good cuz it means i'm hiper and don't want jon to call me...ok um *deep breath* *breath in breath out*
talk to you soon (i hope)
----your ever faithful gaia friend
i'm curious...what is it you do while you're online? and how come it says you're on gaia if you aren't using it? these are just questions i've been asking myself. does it look like i'm on when i'm not? hm...
yea, well nothing really happened today. in drama i had to wrestle with jon and then we had to hug in the end...it's wierd cuz he likes me
nothing else new. so i guess this pm is really short huh? lol it's funny, i think you've become my human jurnal lol do you mind? if you don't like it i'll stop. it's probably really annoying right?
well, ttyl (soon i hope)
hey, do i annoy you or have i at any point in time?
seems like a random question, huh? thing is, there was this one guy who talked to me all the time! he would pm me or IM me whenever he got the chance. he said he loved talking to me and supposedly would look forward to the times we talked through the whole day! well then this one saturday i had nothing better to do, so i was on most of the day. we talked (he was on the whole day too) and after a while, like with anyone, we ran out of things to talk about. over the next few weeks we talked less and less. then when we did talk he started getting into bad moods and being really rude. the last time we talked, he told me i annoyed him to death and that he hated talking to me! i'm not really sure what happened but i don't want it to happen again so if i ever do anything to you please tell me so i know and can apologize and make sure to not do it again (for example, using you as a jurnal and writing letters to you every day till your inbox is full cuz you don't get a chance to check them lol)
so that's my little story. and small request/question type thing...
i'm gonna go finish my history homework now. OMG only 14 days of school left!! two and a half weeks i'm SOOO ready for summer! >< you're gonna take classes this summer right? when do those start for you? or have they started already? hmmm..... lol ok well ttyl
P.S.
Man! I'm hyper and it's 1 a.m.!! not good, my friend. not good at all!
the friend list! it lies!! only the jurnals tell the truth!!
ok let me explain haha sometimes the friend list say people are online, but they reall aren't. sometimes the friend list says people are offline, but they really aren't. to see if they really are on or off line, you have to go to thier jurnal. the jurnal ussually tells the truth if they really are on or off.
oh and i like the new sig lol and the snake. it's cool. i don't know when you'll decide to open and actually read all these (or even if you will at all) but i hope you do and that we can talk soon.
nothing really happened today except that it was FRIDAY!!! but it was a boring friday so nothing to tell about my day.
maybe you'll be on tonight, i don't know.
since there's nothing else to say i guess we'll talk later right? i hope so.
TTFN tata for now
haha
----you're gaia friend
Rosy is over him, but I'm not sure.
See I had this dream where you were Cam
And really I want it to happen! Is that bad?
I don't know what my feeling are right now.
Is it just because of the dream? Or is this feeling true some how.
I don't know which I'm more fond of.
Cam, or the idea of being in love.
I'm still waiting for you, there's no need to fear.
But wouldn't it be amazing if you were already here.
If you really were Cam and my feelings are right.
But that's enough of that tonight.
I haven't written to you.
For that I feel bad.
But I've better writing to
An invisible friend.
I want you to read these letters.
I'd rather you have them,
Than he wait for ever
Before he reads them.
So here they are, love.
They're all for you, begining to end.
My silly writings
To an invisible friend.
hey, it's been a while! lol well, i don't think you're really on right now. my friend list says you are but you haven't responded to me message so i don't know. well, i'm lonely and have no one to talk to so is it alright if i tell you my sorrows? lol i got sick again. see a couple weeks ago i had really high fever and everything that comes with a virus. after about a week, all the symptoms were gone except the congestion. then on friday i wasn't feeling well and saturday it got worse. sunday my fever went way high very suddenly. today (monday) it's been better but i'm still sick. i missed school and don't think i'll be able to go tomorrow either. yea...and my family has their own things to do so i'm all alone here at my house and there's no one to talk to! it's kind of depressing! i mean honestly, what can you do when you're sick?! nothing... the only reason i'm online is cuz i have a laptop that can sit in my lap while i lie in bed haha yea... i finished trigun today. i love the ending! the voice of the young knives is the same guy who does hige from wolf's rain. ever seen that series? it' so cool! lol i bought it and LOVE IT!! lol anyway, i guess this is long enough! so i'll talk to you whenever you get on i guess... bye bye
so, i went to the doctor today since i still felt really bad. she said that i have a really bad sinus infection and gave me some medicine for it. i fell alot better now. but still not 100% ya know? i still fell like crap, just not as bad as the past few days. os, i've been watching this anime called utewarerumono. long name, huh? it's pretty cool. i'm about half way through. i also pulled out a couple of my "sick day" movies lol they are just movies from Ghibli films like howl's moving castle and my neightbor totoro. well, i don't have those yet, but i have princess mononoke and castle in the sky. two great one in my opinion (but my favorite will always be howl's moving caslte!) and that's about all that happened today. i've been sleeping the whole time i wasn't at the doctor's. now i'm hungry sad and there's nothing to eat! and i'm alone again! goodness, how much more could i be feeling sorry for myself right now?! lol sorry. i need someone to vent and even though you aren't responding, you're still pretty much the only one on right now that i would even think about wanting to talk to haha so this mesage isn't quite as long as yesterdays but it's still a pretty good size. oh i can just imagine you getting on gaia and seeing that you have like 20 emails and they would all be from the same person! that picture in my mind is so funny! man, that would be awesome! i wanna do it now! hahaha ok well, till next time! tata
well, this time it doesn't say you're on, but i fell really lonely (yea again i know) haha so i'm writing to you. i'm tellin ya, you're gonna get on and have a heck of a lot of pms haha well, let's see what i did today. oh i had to stay home again. yea, it was bad. i felt just terrible this morning so dad said to go to bed instead of trying to go to school. i slept till almost 2 in the after noon! but when i woke up, i was feeling alot better so mom asked me to go pick up my little brother and run errunds and such. then...hm...then i cam home and ate. and i've been watching utawarerumono and as soon as it's finished i'm gonna start watching clannad. then i'm gonna watch wallflower (aka perfect girl evolution) ever heard of it? i've seen part of it. it's really funny! but all the guys look like girls so it's kinda wierd...anyway, (that's my fave word by the way. i don't say it as much online but when i'm talking to someone, if i'm not sure what to say next or want to change the subject or get back on subject since i tend to side track...anyway lol yea i say 'anyway'!) haha a glimps into the life of me haha want another? ok...um...i am a major sweets freak! i love cookies and cakes and pies and stuff! but i can't eat too much or i get sick since i also have somewhat of a weak stomach. over the years it's gotten better but if i over eat or see something REALLY gross, like...idk...that 2 girls 1 cup vid everyone keeps talking about on youtube...i'll loose my lunch (so to speak) yea...hahaha my mum and friends also say i'm like a living anime without the pause button lol not sure y...ok maybe i am but that's beside the point. actually this whole pm is beside the point. what was the point in the first place? anyway...
i'm rambling now...not something good cuz it means i'm hiper and don't want jon to call me...ok um *deep breath* *breath in breath out*
talk to you soon (i hope)
----your ever faithful gaia friend
i'm curious...what is it you do while you're online? and how come it says you're on gaia if you aren't using it? these are just questions i've been asking myself. does it look like i'm on when i'm not? hm...
yea, well nothing really happened today. in drama i had to wrestle with jon and then we had to hug in the end...it's wierd cuz he likes me
nothing else new. so i guess this pm is really short huh? lol it's funny, i think you've become my human jurnal lol do you mind? if you don't like it i'll stop. it's probably really annoying right?
well, ttyl (soon i hope)
hey, do i annoy you or have i at any point in time?
seems like a random question, huh? thing is, there was this one guy who talked to me all the time! he would pm me or IM me whenever he got the chance. he said he loved talking to me and supposedly would look forward to the times we talked through the whole day! well then this one saturday i had nothing better to do, so i was on most of the day. we talked (he was on the whole day too) and after a while, like with anyone, we ran out of things to talk about. over the next few weeks we talked less and less. then when we did talk he started getting into bad moods and being really rude. the last time we talked, he told me i annoyed him to death and that he hated talking to me! i'm not really sure what happened but i don't want it to happen again so if i ever do anything to you please tell me so i know and can apologize and make sure to not do it again (for example, using you as a jurnal and writing letters to you every day till your inbox is full cuz you don't get a chance to check them lol)
so that's my little story. and small request/question type thing...
i'm gonna go finish my history homework now. OMG only 14 days of school left!! two and a half weeks i'm SOOO ready for summer! >< you're gonna take classes this summer right? when do those start for you? or have they started already? hmmm..... lol ok well ttyl
P.S.
Man! I'm hyper and it's 1 a.m.!! not good, my friend. not good at all!
the friend list! it lies!! only the jurnals tell the truth!!
ok let me explain haha sometimes the friend list say people are online, but they reall aren't. sometimes the friend list says people are offline, but they really aren't. to see if they really are on or off line, you have to go to thier jurnal. the jurnal ussually tells the truth if they really are on or off.
oh and i like the new sig lol and the snake. it's cool. i don't know when you'll decide to open and actually read all these (or even if you will at all) but i hope you do and that we can talk soon.
nothing really happened today except that it was FRIDAY!!! but it was a boring friday so nothing to tell about my day.
maybe you'll be on tonight, i don't know.
since there's nothing else to say i guess we'll talk later right? i hope so.
TTFN tata for now
haha
----you're gaia friend
