Dear Gaia,
Well, I'm having a very bad moment in my life right now. Don't get me wrong, I don't tend to think about suicide but my mom sometimes puts me at that point. There have been exactly three times in my life where I thought about death, this being one of them. When my mother gets angry at me, she makes me feel worthless. She pushes all of my faults in a few great screams and I tend to feel like s**t in the end. Everthing I do wrong or have done wrong gets told right in front of my face. I am told that I ruined her day and that I can't do anything right. It is at times like this that I wish I did not exist.
I remember the first time I wanted to die. All I did all day was move a knife along my right arm. I moved it from my wrist up to my elbows. I moved it this way because my mom told me that stupid people who wish to commit suicide should cut this way. I don't like these feelings but I guess she can't help but want to cause me pain. Sometimes I think it's because I look like my father, who left her for a man. She hates my father and I guess with my looks I remind her of pain. But don't worry gaia, I will not take my life. I have yet to become dumb enough to kill myself because there are people who do care for me. Thank you for your time, I really need it.
Deathy-Chan
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I have lived my life in silence and drowned my days in the Shadows. Life sometimes is never read but it should always be written. Life is simple, it is we, who complicate it.
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