Yah gang !!!!!!! It's me Redd. mrgreen it's me 1st entray and im letting it pour. Well im still a little out of wack since my grandmother's funerla confused . She was only 58, which kinda disturbs me. The really messed up thing is that i couldn't really cry beacause my dad told me i had to comfort my mom. I really miss her crying and the bad thing is i f**ked up the last few weeks of her life. I almost avoided her because on my dad's side of the family, weakness in frowned upon, even for girls.All I wanted to do is tell her I loved her with all my heart. cry All I want to do is see her face, even if it means to kill myself. I know it sounds bad but i love her. I love her so much that it threw my whole life off balence. No part of my life is the same. I love my boyfriend and he loves me back, but he is so distant. I love him , i really do. I never want to lose him. A friend of mine has shown me what need ninja . I need someone sensitve and caring, not distant and even sometimes cold, and just not there sweatdrop I tried telling him but he does nothing. Cheating on him is out of the question, I'm called a lot of things and dont care and cheater is not one of them and I want to keep it that way.What should I do? I need suggestions.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! idea idea idea
Xxx_ReddDeath333_xxX · Thu Jul 10, 2008 @ 06:27am · 0 Comments |