In the meantime I've had a lot on my mind, and so whenever I'm sad mad or anything negative, I draw it out, or make poems. Here's some of the poems I have........
~Ode to love
It's an unexplained power
a force that has yet to contain.
It happens to everyone
at some point in their life,
how it works no one knows
But I heard it's bright and beautiful like a rose.
It thrives on passion, but can also cause pain.
Why give me a false hope?
A hope that someone will accept me,
a living roller coaster, a vulnerable heart.
What future lies ahead?
A love with joy? Or a love in vain?
A meadicine that cures
ambition that's sane.~
That poem was originally, (and still kinda is) my perspective on love.
Thinking," How stupid is this? I'm walking around in cirles with this emotion getting nowhere!" Til some other people have come into my life and changed that around (you know who you are, so give yourself the credit).
To have everything and lose it.
Shatterede to peices bit by bit.
Feeling split and streatched
but one's heart cannot take it,
for the task it too far fetched.
Loving one.....yet loving another....
trusting them, and trusting the other.
On your feet and in the dust,
confuzed and numbed by the state of lust.
Cut open, exposed, crimson regret
the gamble is high
the risk's on the bet.
They give it their all, you give them a lot!
But shall this dream take force?
The probability is NOT.~
I actually wrote this in history class, (ask Vanessa she'll agree) and
I was burdened with the fact that I had crushes on 2 boys! Thought I was over it (as the summer went by), but as school started again it was deja vu! I felt really horrible, especially for the boy I was putting at risk. I was putting his emotions at risk to be more precise, and so what was called a relationship I ended c'ause I couldn't handle the preassure I was recieving. So I hope that answered all my "real life" friends questions.
~ My trance
His smile shines like the sun in golden hour,
when I am near him.....I feel released,
so light that I could take off like a flock of birds.
But as he drifts away, the sun sets.....
and a gray shadow casts over my eyes.
The weight of a thousand...
billion words, rests upon my heart.
A burden that I carry.....
a burden I won't release......
til he knows.....and....
lol, no the boy I am refering to isn't gaara. Its Pitt.
Yes, I know I am a hopeless case (no sympathy please, but no knock downs either). But THIS is when I am head over heels for someone. Not something that's a lablement......sorry still a little sore. But anywho....yeah head over heels pretty much hits the nail on the head for this one....so I'm going to leave it at that. xD
I've got more but I'm tired of typing. So... xD
comment on them if you wish.
~When you only live for so long, what do you live for? ~