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No matter how hard I try I can never keep someone by my side. Why is is, no matter what I always have I lose hold of the one thing I hold dear. I lose my self when that feeling is missing. I try and try but my attempts are futile. I always lose the one thing I love. I wish to know what true love or true feelings but alas I can't find my true self. I just cry in side my soul wishing to know how to feel. All I want is the one I love to come back to me and make my soul free once more because I will die and never be reincarnated to a better form. I will have ceased my existence on this pitiful world and rot in my soul forever never to see the light of day normally; all I see is black and white. that's the color of my soul.
Love is the only thing keeping you from feeling pain... right? No love to me is pain its self. No one seeks shelter when their with the one they love but no matter what I can never feel at peace with the pain within my heart. I just want to kill my self so no one has to deal with me anymore so I don't cause anymore pain to those around me. That is all I wish for is to let those around me be free and never deal with my sadness anymore. Kill me now and let those of my loves be free.





 
 
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