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Haha blaugh the title has nothing to do with my entry.
Yeah Im actually depressed and all, so depressed, I cooled my self down with a little just few shots of booze so not that much right? So that helped me much but now that Im listening to emo songs...I feel like crying my a** off...
I feel so crying but barely any tears come out, i can't even breath. That's how sad I feel. Yet still half dripplets only...It drives me crazy!
Again...Not so surprising but I don't like my crush anymore. May reason, simple. I don't have a personal interest in him anylonger (Ha, I felt so intel just now)...OMG...Im so hungerie...... I should sleep so then I can postpown my pain. no Im not PMsing, I passed a while ago. omg, so now I like 3 different guys that Im considering but one has flirted to a point where I think he is very adorablie cute. Considering his adorableness, I like him. But he's short of something, than other guys. Other guy, he's pretty cute in personality wise and is just a guy I would like, someone who is that outburst type. But he's sort of has too much funk you know? Another, he's cute...just cute, not face...just cute, like he has an adorable personality that just makes you want to say damn, he's cute. Wanna know overall the hellish part of this is? All of the guys, yes so exaggeration in this, is going to a different high school than me. I know, so many of you are like WTH? that's no biggie! psh, there;s much worse things in the universe than that! but now, as an adolescent, yes it is a very big deal to me...
OMG, I had the weirdest dream ever...ish.. I had two...
Okay one was that "azzwipe" was at my dining table waiting for me with my parents eating dinner with me and acted like he lived with me...it was pretty awkward but I sort of liked his company... but the weird vibe I got was that he was like my boyfriend or something or even weirder....My husband?!?!?!? So imagine marrying a guy you never saw yourself with and you ended up marrying him...awkward? yeah thought so...
Second dream, I was a superhero to be and I was drinking a light cocktail with a disquise and to say, it was quite yummy and when the "bad guy" showed up the first time I used it on him worked, but on my second attack, I lost it all and I was trying to gain time with him but my "step" dad woke me up so I was so pissed and moody wondering what would have happened if I did stay and if I would feel any pain that would continue. Or if I wouldn't wake up in my dream and my brain would self destruct it self. I believe if you die in your mind, you don't get a second chance, you don't wake up or when you escape your dream death you learned a lesson. I almost got straggled by two tuxedoed guys who were taller than me with shades, might had black solid bandana covering their mouths... such a weird dream that would never escape my mind in anyway. It lives with me through thick and thin and it would torture my mind for as long as I would live. The day I had that dream... I was seven and I still vividly remember the two guys. It's the one thing Im possitive it was a dream that's gonna remain in my mind for life. Perhaps that's how Im fated to be, I don't know, scares me to say it so Im not but you get the idea.
Well Im getting hungry and tired so goodnight~ cool
 aoi_coco · Sun Oct 19, 2008 @ 11:46am · 0 Comments |
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