A prayer to God,
I know I haven't been good but please forgive me lord. I am in pain right now like an injured abused pup, I am awaiting death to end this pain. I pray you take it away or let me die. I do not wish to wake in the morning and I have a few reasons why. For one, all the promises I held so close to my heart by a single person have all been shattered, all at once. Two, I hate this pain those shattered promises have left, I want it to end. Three, I do not wish to go through life fearing every relationship as if it would break me with the single less imperfect touch. Will you heal my broken heart? Will you stop the pain? Will you take away my life? I do ask of one other alternative dear lord...Can you...for me...please...Fashion for me the perfect one. Someone who will love Phantaisha Oriona Williams for the rest her life? Someone who will keep their promises so that they do not scar my heart. Someone who is perfect for me in every way and who will take care of me? He will propose to me and marry me...He will let me have his children and birth them myself. And...I would like to pray that you make me into a mature, wonderful person. A women you can say, one who is very supportive and who can cheer up her husband when needed. Make me everything I am not so I won't continue to have this ill luck that I have had for the past 3 years. 3 years is a long time to struggle lord, now I just wish I could perish. I'm not very deserving of life anyway. Whatever method you chose will be appropriate. At least then...I don't have to kill myself and take my own life which is a sin. Only you have the power to take life and give it.
So, for these things I pray, through your son Jesus Christs name I pray, Amen.
I know I haven't been good but please forgive me lord. I am in pain right now like an injured abused pup, I am awaiting death to end this pain. I pray you take it away or let me die. I do not wish to wake in the morning and I have a few reasons why. For one, all the promises I held so close to my heart by a single person have all been shattered, all at once. Two, I hate this pain those shattered promises have left, I want it to end. Three, I do not wish to go through life fearing every relationship as if it would break me with the single less imperfect touch. Will you heal my broken heart? Will you stop the pain? Will you take away my life? I do ask of one other alternative dear lord...Can you...for me...please...Fashion for me the perfect one. Someone who will love Phantaisha Oriona Williams for the rest her life? Someone who will keep their promises so that they do not scar my heart. Someone who is perfect for me in every way and who will take care of me? He will propose to me and marry me...He will let me have his children and birth them myself. And...I would like to pray that you make me into a mature, wonderful person. A women you can say, one who is very supportive and who can cheer up her husband when needed. Make me everything I am not so I won't continue to have this ill luck that I have had for the past 3 years. 3 years is a long time to struggle lord, now I just wish I could perish. I'm not very deserving of life anyway. Whatever method you chose will be appropriate. At least then...I don't have to kill myself and take my own life which is a sin. Only you have the power to take life and give it.
So, for these things I pray, through your son Jesus Christs name I pray, Amen.
