So its official, i basically whant to kill myself. It seams like my life has been spiraling down for a while now and i have no way of stopping it. The school is having show quire tryouts and ever since my best friend found out hes been so excited, and thats ok with me because i really hope he gets in. but hes started to not so subtly float away. He's hanging out with our drama friends more and more, and he will barely talk to me. He'll blow me off, he whont get excited to see me, he'd rather spend time with Clair,Sam, and Michala than spend time with me. Its like we havnt be friends for as long as we have. Its like he just met me, and he could care less.I could be bleeding in the middle of the library floor and he whouldnt notice. He used to be, oh so ubsesed (in the good way) and it was so much fun, even though he whould anoy me some times. But now its like... he's trading me in for something better, and i whont have anything left. My other friends all have some body. Melanie has Grant. Denver has Chaz. Mew is so quite, and her best friend is Julia. Sam was friends with Claire Michala and Katie before she was friends with me. Nikki Ryan and Mathew have formed there own little cluster and Jasmens always been just out there, Joey has his own friends and i dont think i whould fit with them much. Every one is just slipping away. And its like, am just supposed to sit here and watch this happen? What am i supposed to do, when there all gone?
love always~
KV
Gala HeIper Community Member 
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