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i know i have been writing a lot today.... i guess i just have a lot to say or im boared or something..... so last night was halloween... and he made it so much fun.... in more ways that one if u catch my drift. i love him to death... but im getting sick of w8ing for him. we have great days lyk yesterday... and then the next day we barely talk. im all for him haveing a life, but i thought he wanted me in his life too. but i guess he has some other things to deal with. like japaneese skool... and going to games... and playing magic... and going to stores to play magic..... he claims he will be back in about an hour.... then 6 hours pass... he comes home sleepy or horny.... and if its horny then he gets sleepy l8r....idk. i guess i just feel really left out... and then he is all surprised and mad when other guys are all over me... but hey... those guys were there when he wasnt. and in the time hes gone... i have time to meet and talk to a lot of people. its not my fault if some of them fall for me. lol. he is always saying hes sorry for all kinds of stuff... lyk not being home to talk to me or something... instead of saying sorry... he could be home. or just not think about it. i hate hearing how sorry he is all the time. i've tought myself to not listen to the time limits he gives himself lyk being home in an hour... and i guess i trained myself not to care anymore..... i love him... but he is screwing me over. he doesnt even w8 4 me when he says hes gunna... i went to church..... and he was suposed to go... but his rents were sleepy or soemthing... and he said that he would w8 for me to get home from church so he could talk to me... but apparently that was too long. not even 2 hours while i w8 4 him all friggen day... he went to his friends house..... i feel so stupid wasteing my life away w8ing for him...... when i know hes out there haveing fun..... and im just sitting.... w8ing on his lies..... ugh.