I'm starting to calm down now, but not really. Everyone on WLO has noticed how touchy I am right now. I've been massacring on a whim. And those ******** bitches made someone else get off too. Now it's Angel and Riki. Eari hasn't been getting on cuz Riki hasn't been on, and Nuzu..... well, I dunno. If Eari got on I could have her call. But she doesn't.
And look at this, ********, normal sleep schedule!
******** you. Gah. You're the only thing that's really ******** with my head right now. Like how I can't stop saying ********. It's all because of you. Happy now? You drove me more insane that I was before. And I was already ******** up in the head.
But I guess there was a good thing today, I got Andy off my a** about his school work, and Scorpy got on today. That was a relief, cuz I really missed Scorpy. We just have a good time, and she doesn't care if I have to be emo sometimes. She's heard quite a story already, but that's because I'm vulnerable. I'm building back up my defensive walls again. I won't get hurt anymore, and they can take me off that stupid medicine. Hell. I'm going to stop taking it as of today. ******** it.
No more reasons for me to be depressed, hm? And I'm sick of having the name of anti-depressants looming over my head. It's like people look at me different. "Oh, you're on anti-depressants." It's like they immediately assume that it's because you wanted to kill yourself or something. I just cut myself, and A; I don't even do that any more, B; It wasn't because I was depressed. There was a reason.
But ******** that. Why would I tell you my reasons. I don't have to explain myself to you. So just ******** off. I'll only tell if you can get past these brand new walls. And they're going to be more along the lines of steel, no more bricks. You'll have to burn to my heart if you want in through it's titanium casing.
Last night, I went to sleep at 8 and woke up this morning at 6. It almost seems like a miracle, but I barely stayed up, for that matter. I was trying really hard. Really, really hard. Harder that I'd ever try for you.
Why do I keep directing things at you? Because I know you're curious, I know you'll read this, and I was you to bleed, to burn and to writhe in torment like I have been. It'll be a slow burn, starting with just a small, smoldering coal on your skin, burning it's was through you, until you burn all the way to that black ******** pathetic heart. And then you'll bleed. Bleed and bleed and bleed. Like a ******** river from your core. And I'll laugh.
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Darling tonight could be a beautiful night to die~
What a sick, masochistic lion.
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Haru Uchiha Teh Wolf
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What a sick, masochistic lion.