At least the wet fall leaves were pretty today. I usually dislike stepping on wet leaves but they smelled very nice today. Today was my first step in doing something in order to try to be happy. I took in the smell of the leaves and the beauty of the ground covered foliage. Then I looked up and down the block at the magnificent 1920's houses. I was in Beverly today, I was on my way to see my old 5th grade teacher from the Montessori school I used to attend. The school is called Council Oak and It is very different from your average elementary school. The learning environment is very hands on and all the activities are fun. I fit right in too. Following those children around as they told me each little thing about their class room. Like when I was their age and learning the same things. I was so amazed and later I asked my grandmother if I was like that? She said yes and I fit right into that school. I wish I had stayed longer than 2 years.
My old teacher is now the principle of that school. Mrs. O'Donahue (I killed the spelling but that is how it sounds. >.> wink She was ever so happy to see me and she gave me a tour. So much had changed these past 7 years and all the little children were saying "Really?! You were here 7 years ago? How old are you?" It was cute. So that made me happy.
The weather today was all hazy rain and gray clouds but ya know what? It wasn't gloomy, not to me. It actually felt very nice. The way that light mist of rain touched my skin and no harsh Chicago wind trying to penetrate my coat either! Very relaxing. It made me so happy and relaxed I felt confident about getting better soon. I'm sick right now. Emotionally sick, and it looks like I'll have to get better on my own in order to fix what was broken. The first time this happened to me I could not fix it. But this time I can and I will. Because I don't think I'm a bad person...just one with problems too...
My old teacher is now the principle of that school. Mrs. O'Donahue (I killed the spelling but that is how it sounds. >.> wink She was ever so happy to see me and she gave me a tour. So much had changed these past 7 years and all the little children were saying "Really?! You were here 7 years ago? How old are you?" It was cute. So that made me happy.
The weather today was all hazy rain and gray clouds but ya know what? It wasn't gloomy, not to me. It actually felt very nice. The way that light mist of rain touched my skin and no harsh Chicago wind trying to penetrate my coat either! Very relaxing. It made me so happy and relaxed I felt confident about getting better soon. I'm sick right now. Emotionally sick, and it looks like I'll have to get better on my own in order to fix what was broken. The first time this happened to me I could not fix it. But this time I can and I will. Because I don't think I'm a bad person...just one with problems too...
