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I still can't get over the range of emotions I feel when someone dies. You would think that after all the lost loved ones, I would be numbed to the sting of a lose. I went through so much first my oldest brother, who the rest choose to forget, then my mother, after that my family just seemed to die off. The count on relatives that are still alive that talk to me, is about 19 or 20. all my friends know they are like family but, I don[t think they know what I would do for them. This morning around 1 i got a call from my sister's husband. My sister is gone, she was one of my best friends, she kept me from doing so many stupid things. She seemed to be the only family member that cared after my mother passed away. She knew I would take iyt the hardest, being the youngest son of my mothers. My sister was one of the few people I trusted. I admit I have an emotional problem it's not easy for me to hide how I feel about someone, so I'm technically an Emo. My sister was one of the few people i would just go to and tell what was bothering me. I... i got to take a break or i'm going to soak my keyboard.