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I have been working on this entrie for some time.

ever morning she is there it might only be in here but to me it's real, it keeps me sane through out the long tiresome day. the next thing that comes is getting ready for the day, get the temperature right for my shower according to the current temperature outside. Go eat a bowl of cereal or some toast with coffee. Call a friend, talk for a bit about life with them. Get ready to go to work. work on network cables, fix small issues with some systems, maintain the server. go home think of her as i wait for anyone to call, try to talk to her on MSN, but almost every time I'm home and try a friend drags me off to do
something. go to bed.

This is the basic thought process of my day, every time i refer to "her" i mean Thorn Gusta, the love of my life. The scary truth is she saved me from a pit of self pitty. one that was about to lead to my own destruction. to me she is an angel that saved my life and the only one i want to be with. Life has had it's ups and downs even with her in it, but i still stand their waiting for her, and if i could i would run to her. I love her with every fiber of my being.

My da dose npt seem all the chaotic but it is when you know what my job is in a whole. working for a major telephone/internet provider, is not as simple as i put it in there. All i do is push through the day and hope to talk to her.

This is it for this entry.