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Dang. I hate myself, my family, and sometimes even my friends. How the hell can 1 person change your whole entire life? I don't know...but it happened...and I can't change the past, but if I could, I would definetly go back and not do it again...or maybe I'm just STUPID and proly WOULD do it again. Same mistake twice? More like 3 times....

I gave it another chance from a year before, and it failed again, and even worse this time, so why am I so surprised? Hell if I know.

I'm just going to ******** live my life to the fullest I can while I got it.

I'm getting drunk tomorrow, and who the ******** knows if someone offers me drugs who knows if I don't take it? I just might...I have nothing to live for anymore anyways so who will care? Yea maybe my friends, but really, I don't know...I thought this someone cared about me but guess I was just being stupid and I'm wrong.

And guess what how sad is this...the only guy at school that I actually LIKE LIKE as in crush type is my teacher...my science teacher...yea. And he's married.
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I hope I just die soon. So I don't have to suffer anymore.

And friends out there, I love you all...but I just can't take s**t anymore. I'm tired of it all.