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Kay,
I need to release my feelings.
I feel like I'm sick of love.
Because I kept feeling it.
But now I feel like I'm failing him.
And I don't know what to do.
I'm nervous to talk to him.
Because I feel like a dissapointment.
And I feel like I'm suffocating him.
Because I was so hopelessly head-over-heels for him.
And I feel like I might have damaged our relationship.
Speeding stuff up, and suffocating him.
Everything he says to me mean something, no matter how small.
I hate love, then I love Love.
I'm not sure what to do.
I'm happy but then always find myself feeling down because I'm thinking of him.
I write songs about him.
And then want to scratch them up.
I just want to be happy.
And I am with him.
But I feel like I'm failed him.
I'm such a pathetic mess.
I attatch myself way too much.
I've been so attatched that I must distance myself.
Which won't be hard.
I just need to relax though I can't.
Oh well, Nothing I can do but distance myself.
To make things better.