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All this pain I feel,
On this day shall I kneel,
I close my eyes,
As the tears begin to pry,
And now as I finally cry,
God, won't you let me die?



As of four days ago, Dec. 30, my life hit the 90 degree drop once again. I don't know how I held my first relationship for 8 months when I can't hold any of my others for more than one month, my gf broke up with me. That's not my issue this time though, my issue this time is that she might hate me. The other day, Dec. 31, I went with her to a New Years Eve party, she seemed angry on the ride there and when I asked about it she said her mom was pissing her off earlier that day. I trust her so I just dropped it there, but still I can't shake the feeling that she was also mad at me. I know it's my fault that she wanted to break up with me, but still, why should she hate me, I mean, just cause we were talking about the future? I know it was too soon to start talking about that, but, ******** I really don't know what to do...