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Oh. Hi again. Listen, sorry I haven't written in a while, but...I didn't...feel like it... Anyway, these are the major events that have taken place. I went to youth group and some freeky stuff happened. The pastor(or whatever his title is) asked everyone to come up who needed to make a decision, wether or not they were willing to trade anything for the kingdom of God. I have a problem with lust. I havent had sex or anything, but I'm a hornball. I do enjoy me some hentai. But I went up there because I decided that I wouldn't let that come between me and Jesus anymore. We all closed our eyes and prayed. This was a group that the Devil couldn't touch. The "pastor" then grabbed me. ME. Out of everyone, God told him to grab me. And he said, "Depression, GONE!" He must have thought that through him, God had cured me of depression. But I don't have depression. Does that mean he was wrong? No. God does stuff that we don't even realise he does. I used to have depression. I'm over it now, and now I use my personal expieriences to help people with depression, and to preach. Through the "pastor", God said to me, "I'm here. I know what your problem is, and I'm here." I knew then that I was closer to God than ever before, AND that I was going to see the end of my problem with "Girl 2" much sooner than latter. That was Wednsday. Not sure what happened Thursday. Friday I came up with an idea for a peace offering for Girl 2. I would make her a doll of The Phantom of the Opera in his Red Death costume. I remember that she said that she loved the black stuff he put arround his eys then. Saturday I worked taking boxes off a truck at my Step Dad's company with 5 Mexicans who spoke no English. Kinda scarry. That night I went to Wal*Mart to get the suplies. All day Sunday I worked on the Doll. I also went back to Wal*Mart and got Pokky, Wasabi Peas, and a bag of Totse Roll Pops to add to the gift. I satyed up 'till 12:30 something working on the doll. Not to mention writing a long letter of apology. I also blessed the gifts. I figured that Preasts are only people that God has givin knowledge and power to. If God gave me the power too, I could bless them. Tjis morning I put them all in a gift bag and gave it to her at school. Then...DRUM ROLL PLEASE!...At lunch...She told me...WHAT I DID!(and the croud goes wild) Once I started liking that one girl, I let the CHANSE(only the chase) for love consume me. I would spend all my time with that girl, sitting with her, talking with her, only giving her lolly pops. In doing so, I ignored Girl 2. I didn't mean to. I didn't even realise that I was doing it. Gilr 2 forgave me, and this afternoon in last class, we had a realy good friendly conversation. We aren't exactly friends again like we used to be, but I know that she doesn't hate me, and I know that things are going to get SO much better between us. Above all that, I know that it was because of God that this happened, and because of God we made up. You might be wondering, "Why would God put you both through all this trouble jus tto put you back less than what you started as?" Well, the situation isn't over yet. But I will say this. She told me something today. Something wonderfull. I can't say(sworn to secrecy), but I don't think it would have come out if this hadn'e happened. "This will ether pull us apart, or bring us closer together than we ever were." I'll keep you guys updated on the situation. Thanks. Bye.

Josh Monreaux

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The Phantom as Red Death: