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The things that hold us together, could tear us apart.
No matter what, I’ll love you.
Do what you truly want, from the bottom of your heart.
Because deep inside, I believe you love me too.


We’ve been through a lot, exactly 144 days.
I wish you could see that I’m really glad…
And it’s our child I’ll always want to raise.
But I’m sorry I always make you sad.

You think you’re something I don’t deserve, but I don’t care
Because you don’t know how long I’ve waited
To be able to run my fingers through your sweet, soft hair.
But I’m greedy and my needs are not sated.

If I could, I’d drown myself in your sweet scent,
Surrender to your gentle love, your passionate lust.
But this is something you must know, what I really meant.
I’m not angry, or upset, but your presence is a must.

You think I can live without you, you think you’re the same
As all the other guys in my past
And it’s slowly driving me insane
Because I’m afraid my bliss won’t last.

I’m silently screaming, wanting you to notice my need.
I’m secretly aching, waiting for you to want me.
I’m noiselessly breaking, not wanting to show my greed.
I’m soundlessly hurting, hoping we could ever be.

I know I always tend to hurt you, and I’m sorry for this.
You claim you hurt me too, though it’s not true.
I’m always waiting to feel you here, feel your kiss.
And I’m always here, wanting and waiting for you.

I know I make no sense a lot of the time, I know I’m confused
I don’t know what I want, I can’t really think.
I’m sorry that I’m always so battered and bruised.
It’s like I’m on a roller coaster, and I can’t blink.

I never want you to leave, I never want to go without you.
I can’t live without it, I’m afraid of being alone.
Your voice repeats in my head, you touch stick to me like glue.
And all of the pain I’ve cause, I know I can’t atone.

But I want you in my life.
From not and till the end of forever.
I want to be your future wife.
Because me leaving you? Never.



Dedicated to Tyler Steven Ostermiller-Sutton.