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Black Snow....

The impentrable darkness was overwhelmingly calming to my existince.It was swallowing my whole eternal memories as it devoured and threatened to take me away. I was being soothed by someone or something, I couldn't imagine what it was though. All the screams i'd built up were lodged in my throat, refusing to surface. I was alerted but not scared one bit. The screams were a way to go quicker. If I lived iI would be alone in the falling snow by th crash site. All ash stricken and sick with nueasa, not my own.Alone and lonely... all other signifant existinces swallowed already by the blackened figure. Expressing a emotion never revealed to anyone in the world, I shed a simple insignificant tear from ducts I never thought were there. The tear was unbearably warm against my frozen stiff face. In the final moments of my torture I realized I wasn't sad or shed a tear for my upcoming death.... I was longing to be found! The tear was for the people who'd died because of me and my sickness.
I finally at the last possible moment was shown the face of my captore and person responsible for the demises taken place here... It was the last person I ever expected to see. It was MYSELF staring into blank face with tear filled eyes. Eyes never to be seen but in dreams of death. Sapphire color with bronze speckles brimming with threating tears. Then I was gone in an oblivian before I said a word of apology to not myself but the little girl, I lost it all over... again. I had then awoken from my dream screaming nothing,looking over by the door, only to see the figure of the little girl standing in my room with one seething doll.... and just when i thought it was all a dream to haunt me. My little sibling lost forever by my lack of responsiblity. My little mimicking twin...
Why do you think I'm all locked up...with nightmares to make me scream awake every night? - p