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Like a grain on the beach. Like a star in the sky. Far too many to count with the naked eye. They won’t see you. Go ahead, walk on by. You don’t know I’m alive. Maybe one day you’ll find you should open your eyes. You don’t know me. You’re the one who looked right through my. Now you’re saying that you knew me when I was invisible. And you’re the one who walked right through me. Now you’re saying that you knew me when I was invisible. Little things adding up. Try so hard not to rush. Giving in, letting go of the world we know. They won’t see you. Force it down. Lose the taste. They all think it’s a waste. We don’t need to believe every word they say, no. they don’t know me. You’re the one who looked right through me. Now you’re saying that you knew me when I was invisible. And you’re the one who walked right through me. Now you’re saying that you knew me when I was invisible. It’s so easy to be lost. But maybe you’re not lost at all. Oh, oh, oh, oh. Do you recognize me? Oh, oh, oh, oh. Do you know who I am? Oh, oh, oh, oh. Do you see me now? Do you see me now? You’re the one who looked right through me. Now you’re saying that you knew me when I was invisible. And you’re the one who walked right through me. Now you’re saying that you knew me when I was invisible. I’m invisible, I’m invisible.

I was sitting on my doorstep. I hung up the phone and it fell out of my hand. But I knew I had to do it. And he wouldn’t understand. So hard to see myself without him. I felt a piece of my heart break. But when you’re standing at a crossroad. There’s a choice you gotta make. I guess it’s gonna have to hurt. I guess I’m have to cry. And let go of some things I loved, to get to the other side. I guess it’s gonna break me down. Like falling when you try to fly. It’s sad, but sometimes moving on with the rest of your life, starts with goodbye. I know there’s a blue horizon. Somewhere up ahead, just waiting for me. Getting there means leaving things behind. Sometimes like’s so bitter sweet. I guess it’s gonna have to hurt. I guess I’m gonna have to cry. And let go of some things I’ve loved, to get to the other side. I guess it’s gonna break me down. Like falling when you try to fly. It’s sad, but sometimes moving on with the rest of your life, starts with goodbye. Time, time heals, the wounds that you feel. Somehow, right now. I guess I’m gonna have to hurt. I guess I’m gonna have to cry. And let go of some things I’ve loved, to get to the other side. I guess it’s gonna break me down. Like falling when you try to fly. It’s sad, but sometimes moving on with the rest of your life, starts with goodbye. I guess I’m gonna have to cry. And let go of some things that I’ve loved, to get to the other side. Starts with goodbye. The only way you try to find. Moving on with the rest of your life. Starts with goodbye.

Lately nothing I do ever seems to please you. And maybe turning my back would be that much easier. Cause hurtful words are all that we exchange. But I can’t watch you walk away. Can I forget about the way it feels to touch you? And all about the good times that we’ve been through. Could I wake up without you every day? Would I let you walk away? No I can’t learn to live without. And I can’t give up on us now. Oh, I know I could say we’re through. And tell myself I’m over you. But even if I made a vow. I promise not to miss you now. And try to hide the truth inside. I fail cause I, I just can’t live a lie. Could I forget the look that tells me that you want me? And all the reasons that make loving you so easy. The kiss that always makes it hard to breathe. The way you know just what I mean. no, I can’t learn to live without. Oh, so don’t give up on us now. Oh, I know I could say we’re through. And tell myself I’m over you. But even if I made a vow. I promise not to miss you now. And try to hide the truth inside. I fail cause I, I just can’t live a lie. Oh, and I don’t wanna try. Oh, I know I could say we’re through. And tell myself I’m over you. But even if I made a vow. I promise not to miss you now. And try to hide the truth inside. I’d fail cause I, I just can’t live a lie. I just can’t live a lie. But even if I made a vow. I promise not to miss you now. And try to hide the truth inside. I’d fail cause I, I just can’t live a lie. Oh, I can’t live a lie. Oh, I can’t live a lie.

When you look back on times we had. I hope you smile. And know that through the good and through the bad. I was on your side when nobody could hold us down. We claimed the brightest star. And we, we came so far. And no, they won’t forget. Whenever you remember time gone by. Remember how we held our heads so high. When all this world was there for us, and we believed that we could touch the sky. Whenever you remember, I’ll be there. Remember how we reached that dream together. Whenever you remember. When you think back on all we’ve done. I hope you’re proud. When you look back and see how far we’ve come. It was our time to shine. And nobody could hold us down. They thought they’d see us fall, but we, we stood so tall. And no, we won’t forget. Whenever you remember times gone by. Remember how we held our heads so high. When all this world was there for us. And we believed that we could touch the sky. Whenever you remember, I’ll be there. Remember how we reached that dream together. Whenever you remember. Yeah, oh. We claimed the brightest star. And we, we came so far. You know that we, we showed them all. And no, they won’t forget. Yeah. Whenever you remember times gone by. Remember how we held our heads so high. When all this world was there for us. And we believed that we could touch the sky. Whenever you remember, I’ll be there. Remember how we reached that dream together. When ever you remember. Oh, whenever you remember.

And I’m not going back, into rags or in the hole. And our bruises are coming, but we will never fold. And I was your silver lining, as the story goes. I was your silver lining, but now I’m gold. Hooray, hooray, I’m your silver lining. Hooray, hooray, but now I’m gold. And I was your silver lining, high up on my toes. You were running through fields of hitch hikers, as the story goes. Hooray, hooray, I’m your silver lining. Hooray, hooray, but now I’m gold. Hooray, hooray, I’m your silver lining. Hooray, hooray, but now I’m gold. And the grass, it was a ticking. And the sun was on the rise. I never felt so wicked, as when I willed our love to die. And I was your silver lining, as the story goes. I was your silver lining, but now I’m gold. Hooray, hooray, I’m your silver lining. Hooray, hooray, but now I’m gold. Hooray, hooray, I’m your silver lining. Hooray, hooray, but now I’m gold. But now I’m gold. But now I’m gold.

Breathe you out. Breathe you in. you keep coming back to tell me you’re the one who could have been. And in my eyes, I see it all so clear. It was long ago and far away, but it never disappeared. I tried to put it in the past. Hold to myself, and don’t look back. I don’t wanna dream about all the things never were. Maybe I can live without, when I’m out from under. I don’t wanna feel the pain. What good would it do me now? I’ll get it all figured out when I’m out from under. So let me go. Just let me fly away. Let me feel the space between us growing deeper. And much darker every day. Watch me now, and I’ll be someone new. My heart will be unbroken. It will open up for everyone but you. Even when I cross the line, it’s like a lie I’ve told a thousand times. I don’t wanna dream about all the things that never were. Maybe I can live without, when I’m out from under. I don’t wanna feel the pain. What good would it do me now? I’ll get it all figured out, when I’m out from under. And part of me still believes when you ay you’re gonna stick around. And part of me still believes we can find a way to work it out. But I know that we tried everything we could try. So let’s just say goodbye. Forever. I don’t wanna dream about all the things that never were. Maybe I can live without, when I’m out from under. I don’t wanna feel the pain. What good would it do me now? I’ll get it all figured out, when I’m out from under. I’m don’t wanna dream about all the things that never were. Maybe I can live without, when I’m out from under. I don’t wanna feel the pain. What good would it do me now? I’ll get it all figured out, when I’m out from under. When I’m out from under.

Oh. Oh yeah. Watch you walk away. I didn’t say the words I wanted to say. Now I’m sitting all alone, thinking bout the times I had you here to hold. Giving you my reasons why I feel this when we say goodbye. But I won’t run around after you. And you know what you’ve found. And you know I’m in love with you. Everything changes when I see your smile. So stay a little while. I miss you even more today, knowing that you’re so far away. You tell me that you’ll see me soon, but tell me just how long I have to wait for you. Giving you my reasons why, for asking you to stay tonight. But I won’t run around after you. And you know what you’ve found. And you know I’m in love with you. Everything changes when I see your smile. So stay for a little while. And I won’t run around after you. And you know what you’ve found. And you know I’m in love with you. Everything changes when I see your smile. So stay a little while. Stay a little while. While.

I saw it in the news. You told me they were wrong. And I stood up for you cause I believed you were the one. You had all the chances in the world to let me know the truth. What the hell’s wrong with you? Are you even listening when I talk to you? Do you even know how much it hurt, that you gave up on me to be with her? Revenge is sweeter than you ever were. I’m so mad at you right now. I can’t even find the words. And you’re on the way down. I can’t wait to see you burn. You try to make me hate that girl. When I should be hating you. What the hell’s wrong with you? Are you even listening when I talk to you? Do you even care what I’m going through? Your eyes stare and they’re staring right through me. You’re right there but it’s like you never knew me. Do you even know how much it hurt, that you gave up on me to be with her? Revenge is sweeter than you ever were. (Than you ever were) Revenge is sweeter than you ever were. Nothing can save you now that it’s over. I guess that you’ll find out when you’re no one. Don’t say you’re sorry now cause I just don’t care. Nothing can save you know, nothing. Nothing can save you now, nothing. Are you even listening when I talk to you? Do you even care what I’m going through? You’re eyes stare and they’re staring right through me. You’re right there but it’s like you never knew me. Do you even know how much it hurt, that you gave up on me to be with her? Revenge is sweeter than you ever were. (Than you ever were) Revenge is sweeter than you ever were.

She asked if you could stay. Did ya think about me when you almost turned away. Did you think about me when you picked up the phone. Should have let it just ringing. And made it seem like everything was the same as it had always been. Did ya think about me being half awake and crying, lying on the floor and waiting for the break of day/ didn’t think about tearing me apart, at any moment in the night you could have tried to make it right. Why, why, why? Now in an after thought were you thinking about me. Don’t know what you did it for. Cause you were thinking about you, so you want me to believe you were thinking about me. It isn’t hard for me to see you didn’t stop for anything. How bout me being half awake and crying. Lying on the floor and waiting for the break of day. Didn’t you think about tearing me apart, at any moment in the night you could have tried to make it right. Give me one good reason why in time I should believe in you. You had me, you had it, everything. So close your eyes and remember all those lies that you never say when you pretend that you will be with me again. Did ya think about me being half awake and crying. Lying on the floor and waiting for the break of day. Didn’t think about me tearing apart, at any moment in the night you could have tried to make it right. Why, why, why? Did ya think about me being half awake and crying, lying on the floor and waiting for the break of day. Didn’t think about tearing me apart, at any moment in the night you could have tried to make it right. Why, why, why?

I am fading, fading. I’m slipping away, as I disappear in the dark. You never take the time to really look. Look at the one, the one I really am. You try to fit, to fit me in your perfect box. You let me slip between the cracks. Now I’m faded into someone else. Baby, someone I don’t wanna be. Yeah, I’m faded. My true color’s gone, like a picture nobody sees. I bet you don’t, don’t even know my favorite song. You tell me how, how I should wear my hair. You wanna change everything I ever was. Try to erase , me until I’m not there. Now I’m faded into someone else. Baby, someone I don’t wanna be. Yeah, I’m faded. My true color’s gone, like a picture nobody sees. Now I’m faded, like I never was. Until I don’t even know myself. Yeah, I’m faded into what you want. But I’m not taking it too well. I don’t wanna be your little picture-perfect-pretty-girl, who’s got nothing to say. And I’m not gonna wait around for you. To run my whole life down. I’ll let you watch me fade away. You try to fit, to fit me in your perfect box. You let me slip between the cracks. Now I’m faded into someone else. Baby, someone I don’t wanna be. Yeah, I’m faded. My true color’s gone, like a picture nobody sees. Now I’m faded, like I never was. Until I don’t even know myself. Yeah, I’m faded into what you want. But I’m not taking it too well. Fading, fading, I’m slipping away. As I disappear in the dark. Fading, fading, I’m so far away. I don’t know who I was at the start. Fading, fading, I’m slipping away/ as I disappear in the dark. Fading, fading, I’m so far away/ I don’t know who I was at the start.

All my life you've had an opinion. Doing things for the wrong reasons. Well not today. Don’t you know I think for myself. I get on fine without anybody’s help. Don’t care what you say, yeah. I’m breaking your heart, and I’m breaking apart. All you do is hold me down(hold me down) Try to make me someone I don’t know. I’m not the girl you’d thought you found. What would you do if I told you, you can’t control my life. What would you say if I left today with no regrets and no goodbye. What would you do if I told you, there is no more you and I. what would you do if I walked away and left you there to cry. I don’t know what’s coming over you. Or how we fell apart. I tried so hard, but I don’t believe in you. You’re not the guy I thought I knew. What would you do if I told you, you can’t control my life. And what would you say if I left today, with no regrets and no goodbye. What would you do if I told you there is no more you and I. What would say if I walked away and left you there to cry. What would you say if I said to you, just go ahead and cry.

dear Santa, I wrote you a letter. I wonder if you ever read it. I’ve only one wish that I’ll ask you. And it’s the same old thing as every other year. This year I can’t say I’ve been perfect. I’m pretty sure I’ve got a regret or two. But Santa please don’t hold it against me. Cause this year I’m counting on you to… bring me, bring me love, oh. Santa bring me, bring me love, oh. Bring me love. As a child I remember dreaming of all the things that you can create. But I can have all the toys in the world and still wouldn’t mean a thing. Can you bring me, bring me… love. Santa, bring me, bring me… love. I’ve been patient. I’ve been waiting so long. Hoping, praying, jjust tell me that you heard me. Just this once. Can you bring me, bring me love, oh. Santa, bring me, bring me love, oh. Tell me the time has come. That there is someone waiting for me too. So, Santa, bring me, bring me love.. Oh.. Bring me love.

You wear, your hair. Like it’s your best accessory. And I don’t want to ever have to compete with that. I know, you’d be nothing but excessively sweet. Cherish me, sing to me, love me. But I can’t belong. To anyone else right now. Though it is not much of an excuse. I can’t belong to anybody else when I’ve got so much figuring out to do. I don’t want to be a girlfriend. I don’t want to talk about my feelings, yea. I don’t wanna be some girlfriend. I don’t wanna have to explain what I’m thinking. I go, alone, to watch stupid romance movies. And I sit, wishing, it was your arms wrapped around me and I just deny, that all I want is a piece of you. But I guess it’s true. Don’t want to talk on the phone. Don’t want attachments, don’t wanna be your girlfriend. I just can’t belong to anybody else right now. Though it is not much of an excuse. I can’t belong to anybody else when I’ve got so much figuring out to do. I don’t wanna be a girlfriend. I don’t wanna talk about my feelings, yea. I don’t wanna be a girlfriend. I don’t wanna have to explain what I’m thinking. Is it wrong for me to want you just for a day? I don’t want to be that kind of girl. But I can’t help myself.

Spotlight shining brightly, on my face. I can’t see a thing and yet I feel you walking my way. Empty stage, with nothing but this girl. Singing this simple melody and wearing her heart on her sleeve. And right now, I have you, for a moment I can tell I’ve got you. Cause your lips don’t move. Something is happening. Cause your eyes tell me the truth. I’ve put a spell over you. Beauty emanates from every word that you say. You’ve captured the deepest thoughts. In purest, and the simplest of ways. But you see, I’m not that graceful, like you. Nor am I as eloquent, but just a simple melody. Can change the way that you see me. And right now, I have you. For a moment I can tell I’ve got you. Cause your lips don’t move. And something is happening. Cause your eyes tell me the truth. I’ve put a spell over you. And all my life, I’ve stumbled. But up here I am just perfect. Perfect as I’ll ever be. I have you, for a moment. I can tell I’ve got you. Cause your lips don’t move. And something is happening. Cause your eyes tell me the truth. I’ve put a spell over you.

Here's a story of a girl, living in a lonely world. A hidden note, a secret crush. A little boy who talks to much. Well, I’m standing in the crowd, and when you smile, I check you out. But you don’t even know my name, you’re to busy playing games. And I want you to know. If you lose your way, I won’t let you go. If I cut my hair, if I change my clothes, will you notice me? If I bite my lip, if I say hello, will you notice me? What’s it gonna take for you to see? I want to notice me, I’ll get you to notice me. Got your head up in the clouds, tell me when you’re coming down. I don’t wanna sink your ship, it’s not about the scholarship. And all the friends that follow you, tell you things that just aren’t true. I’m the girl you never see, I’m the one you really need. So don’t you get me wrong, you better make your move. Before the moments gone, tell me. If I cut my hair, if I change my clothes, will you notice me? If I bite my lip, if I say hello, will you notice me? What’s it gonna take for you to see? I want to notice me, I’ll get you to notice me. I’m not like the rest, I don’t care if you’re the best. You see it, it’s all the same to me. You just be who you want to be, it’s all the same to me. Oh, don’t get me wrong, you better make your move before the moments gone, tell me. If I cut my hair, if I change my clothes, will you notice me? If I bite my lip, if I say hello, will you notice me? If I cut my hair, if I change my clothes, will you notice me? If I bite my lip, if I say hello, will you notice me? What’s it gonna take for you to see? I want to notice me, I’ll get you to notice me. I’ll get you to notice me. I’ll get you to notice me. I’ll get you to notice me.

You look at me like you always do. You don’t have a clue. You smile at me, you hug me. But you don’t know that I want you. You play with me, you flirt with me. You tell me all your secrets. I’m always the one you run to, but to you I’m just a friend. Don’t say I love you. Don’t say you need me. Don’t say I trust you. My heart can’t take it. Don’t say you want me. don’t say you miss me. don’t hurt me. don’t say you love me. I tried my best to get rid of these thoughts of you and I, its so hard. When you come to me, I fall back on my knees. I’ve learned to hate love. You kiss me on the cheek, you say you’d never make it without me. Its getting harder everyday. Please don’t say to me. don’t say I love you. Don’t say you need me. Don’t say I trust you. My heart can’t take it. Don’t say you want me. Don’t say you miss me. Don’t hurt me. Don’t say you love me. don’t say you love me. don’t say you love me. don’t say you love me. don’t say you love me. My heart can’t take it. I love you so much. But don’t you see me, I hate love. don’t say I love you. don’t say you need me. don’t say I trust you, unless you mean it. don’t say you want me. don’t say you need me. don’t hurt me, no. don’t say I love you. don’t say I need you. don’t say I trust you. My heart can’t take it. don’t say you want me. don’t say you miss me. don’t hurt me. don’t say you love me.