I have no emotion it seems. I can't decide if I'm happy or not. At school I say I'm happy and to all my friends I smile and say hello. But it's not real I hide my sadness and then later I question myself. Happy or Sad? I don't know. Most likely sad. It's true. I don't know why but I'm not lying. It frustrates me to wonder, to make an effort to find out. I need some help deciding. But this isn't something to push to friends to answer. So I have to find some way to the answer. I don't know how or what I will do to help me on my way but for now I feel sadness.