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[******** I HATE PEOPLE!
They always make me think! Now I see why Tyler never talked to me about s**t! It gets ******** annoying when all people ******** talk about it HIM!!!! LETS JUST GET THIS s**t OVER WITH! YA, I STILL HAVE FEELINGS FOR TYLER. YA HE BROKE MY HEART. YA, HE PROPOSED TO ME! YA, HE DID IT OUT OF PITY! I DON'T CARE ANYMORE! I'M SICK OF THE THINGS PEOPLE MAKE ME THINK OF!
I'm actually happy him and Kelsey are together. Ya, it's a pain in the a** to hear about how he's finally showing emotion to someone other than me. But at least he can do it and be happy about it! I'm sick of people constantly telling me, "Oh I love Tyler so much!" and BLAH BLAH BLAH! BULL s**t! You don't know what love is if you think you can love someone like that. I spent 8 mother ******** months with him and I still don't know anything about him! HE'S WITH SOMEONE WHOM HE'S KNOWN A YEAR AND SHE KNOWS EVERYTHING! I don't know who Kaitlyn is. I don't know what the Young Bloodz are about and quite frankly, I DON'T CARE! I'm sick of my past being thrown in my ******** face when people don't even know what they're talking about! I'M A 15 YEAR OLD GIRL THAT'S LIFE IS A PIECE OF s**t! I'd rather drink my life away than deal with the problems at hand. I'm the type of person to just leave things alone and go on with my life. People may argue with that but I don't care. I'm just trying to get over my first love without regret. But still, people constantly bring him up as if they don't care about the feelings that I actually have. I wish he would talk to me. I beg him to ******** talk to me but he chooses not to. That's his ******** choice. I don't want any drama with him anymore. I'm cool with Kelsey just like he ******** asked and yet he's still acting like this. He can call me a whore and not even care. YOU KNOW ME BETTER THAN THAT TYLER! I'm nothing like that! And with him telling Kelsey everything that was personal, that's ******** up! I never got into ******** detail about what he and I did behind closed doors. I just told my friends what I did. I never told them what happened. SO ******** YOU!