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I should've just left things alone. I'm starting to feel like no matter what I do, someone is always unhappy. I tried fixing something that I should've never gotten involved in and now I've ruined it. Good job, Amanda. I kept going back and forth between you two and tried to figure out why you're fighting in the first place and I couldn't. So what'd I do? I tried giving advice to fix it and really all I did was f*k everything up. You guys keep telling me that it wasn't my fault that you guys were fighting. Well it may not have started out as my fault but the way it ended feels like it's on my shoulders. I guess I've been doing things wrong all along. A few things I need to remember now: -If my friends are fighting, ignore it. It's all good since my own* friendships aren't being harmed. -If my friend is upset, be sure to make it worse. They'll thank you afterwards. . . . . I don't understand how that works but that's what I've been told in the past few weeks. The only question now is do I take that advice or do I follow my gut? Because lately my gut doesn't know what it's doing. >.< Ugh. . . Whatever. I wonder if things would've gone better if I'd just disappeared. No more Amanda = Happy Denise and Dee.

Posted by: Through My Lens Thu Apr 16, 2009 @ 08:33am

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Commented on: Sat Apr 18, 2009 @ 05:43am


	No you want to know what happened? I graduated. That's what happened. I graduated and started college and didn't see her as often. I wasn't there everyday to notice her change and get used to it. You were, that's why you guys have an excellent bond still. I barely see Denise, and even when I do, we don't talk about a lot. This isn't your fault, this isn't a problem you have to fix. It's life. I'm not fighting with her. We've just changed and don't have a lot in common. We don't have the same inside jokes. We don't have the same humor as we once did. There's nothing that can stop that. You're not being selfish for focusing on your friendship with Denise. Maybe we would talk more if we both had a schedule that actually allowed us to talk. Maybe we could fix this, but we never have time to talk to each other. People go their seperate ways, Amanda. I can't help that. Paul for example: he's on the other side of the world and I talk to him once every few months if I'm lucky. But him and I are still friends. We see things differently now, but we're still friends. I'm willing to try that if it'll fix this. I'm sick of people pointing fingers. It's all our faults, how about that. We're all to blame. Now let's start over. I want to be friends, I want to be happy. Obviously this isn't the road to take.

Commented on: Sat Apr 18, 2009 @ 07:30am


	I don't get how you being friends with Paul makes any difference. You guys see things differently but you're still friends? So then why can't it be that way with you and Denise? That's why I'm so confused. Probably because I'm just an idiot and I don't know what goes through your guys' heads. Again, sorry for pointing fingers and now that some of this is my fault, I'm sorry for that, too. I'm trying to stay out of it but it just keeps coming up over and over and over and f*king over and I want it to stop and no matter what I do, I've messed something up again. I don't know what to tell you guys anymore. I'm kind of sick of it. I'm not saying I'm* giving up on you two being friends, I'm just sick of. . . . >.< NEVERMIND. I'm going to shut up. I'm not saying anything else. It never helps anyway. Bottom line: Sorry for f**king things up more than they already were, alright?

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Commented on: Thu Apr 23, 2009 @ 09:57pm


	amanda dear follow your instincts they will lead you to trouble but maybe thinsg workout the way they do for a reason.. follow your instincts now because you never know what tomorrow will hold.

Commented on: Wed Aug 12, 2009 @ 09:28pm


	ur not that bad of a person if u could look past ur mistakes and faults and see the good side of you which very large apparently cuase i have yet to see the bad side if u could that just that then maybe u see how happy u make people like me smile

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