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Your face haunts My dreams. Your voice echo's through my head. Your grasp around my heart tightens as i try to pull away. I'm cold. I'm crazy.I'm lost and I'm found.
I'm just another man weighing s**t and gold in his hands. I feel the wait weighing me down i feel the time drowning the sound. I Age and fall away! You and me are close and far. Here and there and gone! You take my s**t You forward it and send it back my way.
Your beauty scares me your way astound me. And I'm afraid to let you in. I type and type hoping you'll write. I dream away the day!
My mind is a mess my ways are confusing and quite possibly abusing but i wish you'd help me be the man i know i could be.
My thoughts get lost as do my hopes.I miss you and wish you would Stay away all at the same time.
I say I'm sorry. but how many times can you say the same old words? They get worn and meaningless then become lies.
I love you and push you away is all my brain can think to do.

Now i don't know what the hell I'm doing. I've just been writing how i feel and making them somehow mesh together. It's not a song or a entry nor a poem or a story. It's just an it. an abomination of the literary world. I just wanna tell you that.... I'm a confused very confused person who loves you. and wants the best for you. whether your life has me in it or not. whether me or you end up together or not. or if i ever get to see your face or see you smile.
I feel horrible that i can't be with you to cheer you up when your sad, to help you get better when your sick, to just be there and make happy memories.
I don't know what's best for you. Idk if I'm the best thing or someone else is. Or w/e. But i just wanna make sure you are happy and well.And that you get what you so rightly deserve. A happy enjoyable life ^^. But i doubt you'll see this and i'll bet everyone else won't look at it except a choice few that i Would prefer not to see it but w/e. i'm the one who made it public.